Sinergy

i love him

i touched myself today
and i'll do it tomorrow
he's not home though
but this will do

he was my first crush , love and everything
but I was his second everything
he said he was cheated on
his broken heart could not heal it seems

so am i a sort of revenge
to the one you care ?
can't help my infatuation from saying
you can't leave him
but what do I look like to you ?
a bootleg version to twist and break
what about sex ?
does her moans snap you from leaving me
desperate ?
my kisses doesn't have the tint of peppermint like her ?

i'm sorry about her , i'm sorry i'm not her .
i'm selfish
i know you don't love me but your embrace
makes me more content than the dark thoughts

i want to keep you to myself because your smile
makes me fall till my nose bleeds
you're so unhappy and this is unhealthy
but your sad face makes me
want to shower you with puppy kisses and tickles
this is why it's hard letting you go