She is...

She is... Broken

I sat in the back seat of the car. I had my hands in my lap as I fiddled with them nervously, picking at my black nail polish.

I stopped when my lap was covered and I brushed at the pieces that fell to the ground softly. I sighed and licked my lips. The air around me thinned out, and a slight suffocating feeling hit my lungs.

I breathed in deeply. My heart filled with guilt and I looked up at my parents. I thought about everything I wanted to say: sorry, I love you, thank you...

I caught my mum's kind eyes in the rearview mirror; blue to blue, and I smiled. They'd forgive me, for everything, surely.

I gasped at the ache in my heart and it slipped out my mouth.

'I'm sorry...' my voice sounded urgent and worried. I saw my dad's shoulder's tense in the drivers seat and he stared in the mirror back at me, catching my blue eyes with his green ones.

I sighed and the said again more calmly.

'I'm sorry... I love you.'

A smile spread across my face and my parents reacted the same. My dad sighed, his shoulders relaxing and my mum turned to face me.

'We love you too darling.' She responded. An agreeing nod came from my dad and warmness filled my heart.

I sighed with peace and my mind was empty of thoughts. I caught my dad's eyes in the rearview mirror. He stared at me intensely with love, but I still saw pain laced behind his eyes.

Then I felt it again, harsher in my lungs. The ache in my heart returning. As I stared back into my father's eyes, tension built up inside me.

I was waiting for something. I knew that's what it was; I could feel the build up inside me, but I didn't know what it was.

I smiled softly and the pain behind my dad's eyes vanished. I looked down, he looked back to the road... and then it happened.

Before I could react, the car collided with the barrier. I clutched the seat cushions as my seat belt tightened around my chest and the air bags deployed. The front bonnet flipped up in the air and the bottom of the car, underneath me, hit the barrier, hard. We fell over the bridge and...

*BLACKOUT*

I woke up out of breath and screaming. My chest was tight and my head was throbbing, about to explode.

I wasn't in my room I wasn't with... No. Why would I be?

I sobbed quietly. I'd ruined everything and now I wasn't anywhere I knew.

But maybe that was a good thing...