T(ex)ts

5. Unsteady

(PHOTO: This is how Lucy is dressed at the bar) 

What are you doing here?" a voice said behind us, and when we turned around, my heart jumped.

Lucy was stending in front of us.

"Lucy..." I started, I was shocked to see her. She usually don't come when she has school the next day. 

The music was way too loud and she frowned because she was trying to hear what I was trying to say but nothing came out of my mouth. I turned to Lauren so she could say something but Lauren was acting like it was normal to see us together. She was calm and she still has that expression on her face as if she didn't have any emotions. Absolutely indifferent. I guess she was too drunk to actually understand the situation. We just kissed and Lucy may have seen us. Lucy got closer to me but she was looking at her best friend.

"Lauren? What are you doing here with Y/N?"

Maybe she didn't see anything, after all.

"Nothing, I was just getting your sweatshirt back," she finally answers, "You know, the one you were talking about yesterday." 

"Oh, cool" she said, looking  back at me, but I couldn't look at her in the eyes without feeling bad for what I just did. Plus, I haven't seen Lucy for a while so the tension was real.

"Well, I'm leaving. Have a nice evening... Both of you" I said, since I was uncomfortable. I was about to pass through Lucy but she grabbed my arm. My heart jumped. I can't say I don't feel anything for Lucy anymore. I do love her. I really do, and sometimes I wonder if it wasn't a mistake to break up with her.

"You should stay" she says near to my ear, giving me chills all over my body. I was so weak for her.

"I thought you didn't want to talk to me" I answer, still not looking at the young girl.

Lauren watched all of this but didn't say a word. She wasn't even moving.

"I want to, now. Can we talk?" 

I finally turned my head to look at her and it was enough to make me stay. She was stunning. She has always been stunning and I wanted her to forgive me, because I missed her like hell.

Shameless by The Weeknd started playing in the bar. Was it a "The Weeknd" special night? I couldn't handle it, those songs make me want to have sex all night. Lucy knew that, we used to have sex on his songs. So as we walked our way out of the bar, she smiled, looking at me, and I rolled my eyes.

< Who's gonna fuck you like me? >

Please, Ally, change this damn song. I thought you were the catholic one.

We were now in the parking, just her and me. I was a little bit nervous.

"So..." I started, because the silence started to become awkward.

"Are you ready to tell me the truth?" she said calmly.

"About what?" 

"The reason why you left me." 

She took a cigarette from her back pocket and she lights it. 

"I..."

She looked right into my eyes.

"I don't even know, Lucy."

"You're lying" 

"I'm not" 

"You don't break up with someone you love for no reason, don't take me for an idiot." 

I didn't know what to say. I was not lying, I didn't know why I broke up with her.