"They treated me like a monster.....so I became one"
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there's not really much I can do anymore the second it knows I'm awake I'm completely FUCKED I've Grown to deep now it's consuming me from the inside it's a part of me I don't know what to do I'm a monster and they ALL know it so they use it against me I'm weak and I know it I can't get out even if I tried and if I did I'll die so there's not going out of it I'm making sure no one sees the fear in my eyes because if they do I'll become there puppet
I know your awake
I shot up sweating terrified with the voice I just heard I look around and see nothing I sigh aborning these nightmares I've been having I look at my alarm clock on the night stand next to my bed "8:47 better get ready" hi I'm Itward locks weird name I know I'm 17 years old but I already wasted my whole life I get out of bed standing up but then blacking out for a split second it happens I regain my balance and start walking to my dresser that has a mirror in front "even in my reflection you can see how fucked up I am" I look away then look back in the mirror seeing a horrible image of me in bloody murder I then got a striking pain like as if I was hit with a brick I grasp my head screaming in pain on the floor with short breath gasping for a breath I heard my door open then a little girl gasp no anyone but her "brother?" She questions walking to me I put my hand to stop her "no AH l-Lana no GAH UGH I'm UGH f-fine" I couldn't help put let out some screams of pain in between my words I was panting and gasping until the pain slowly faded away "brother are you okay" I put my hands away from my head and look at my little sister Lana her blond wavy hair flowed down her shoulders and her big green eyes shining in the darkness of my room her long pastel blues dress when al the way to her knees she had a brown bear plushie with a red bow she ran to me hugging me "you scared me" sometimes I scare my self Lana "I'm fine Lana" "HURRY UP FAGGOTS AND GET DRESSED" I look up to see the biggest asshole ever my brother he had a cigarette in his hand "Jackson can you please not swear in front of Lana" "well can you just kys we all have dreams" his dirty blond hair covered one of his eyes and his dull brown eyes blended with the darkness he walked of and Lana let go of me "come one Itward" I sometimes wonder if Jackson is my real brother he smokes almost 24/7 and I hate him he's a abusing brother but he only abuses me he use to abuse Lana but I made sure he never hurt her that girl is my life before I leave with Lana I get a call "hello" "hey Itward get your ass over here now you have a mission" "what why now" "no questions dipshit" "Ugh fine" I hang up and look at Lana "who was that" "my job I have to go" I hug her one more time then get dressed and leave but before "where are you going " I turn around and see my alcoholic mom she had a wine bottle in her hand "I'm going to my friends house" "like you have friends LEAVE " I quickly leave and hear a smashing sound she threw the bottle....she tried to kill you I think I shake it of and start walking I'm a assassin and I get paid 58 dollars a mission and I have 6 missions a day so that's 348 dollars a day, 2,436 a week, 10,788 a month and 127,020 a year but I don't keep the money I help my family my dads always with a slut my moms a alcoholic so she forgets her husbands cheating on her and my brother smokes the only person I care about is Lana I run my hair through my white hair and continue walking my family's constantly in huge debts so I got this got job to help my family but honestly I'm a monster I have to kill other families for money 6 times a day but it's worth it to help my family but I've been doing this since I was 16 SO a year of bloody murder does things to you makes you have nightmares chances you but I've learned to hide my pain from people in school I'm adored and loved but under my happiness is a killer and under that in a scared boy who only cares for his sister
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Chapter one of itward's story
