Journal entry - 1
November 26, 2016
11:00 PM
Today was another dreadful day. I feel like the deeper I get into my depression, the more dreadful days become. I haven't taken my depression medication for almost a week because it makes me even more sad, and I explained that to my mother, but she said that the reason as to why it makes me more sad is because I don't take it on a daily basis. I don't want to rely on medication to make me feel better. I shouldn't feel this way, no one should, and no one should rely on medication to make them feel better. I also feel like shit. I hate myself so much. Every time I take a bite of food, I regret it and I hate myself even more, that isn't normal. Eating food shouldn't be something that you should regret and eating food shouldn't make you hate yourself. Why why why why why why why why? Why? I don't understand why this happening to me. So much is going on, everything hurts but yet I am numb to things. It doesn't make any sense. One second I feel like this and the next second I don't feel anything at all. Please make it stop.
