yesterday.

mountain lights

the day was fading away

It is upsetting how day seems to go away faster
night is always attempting to befriend me,
but I'm stubborn.

I'm not a fan of the new, I love the old
I hold onto it
I think I rely on it.

I see
I get
I understand the view

the night is enchanting
the stars glisten and I can hear them screaming
I always stare at them in awe, but I want light even then.

I crave for the bitter
but the sweet has already bitten too deep.

I guess it's a combination of desires and the inevitable truth.
I'm bittersweet.

yesterday, was bittersweet.

I woke up in fear
and in grief
along with an anxious body and mind.

terror was arising
my friend became my enemy
my interest became torture.

one more day
one more single day

till soon I subside the nostalgic grasp & lean onto the mind
of fear
but productivity.

bitter I felt
but lost in love

sour my eyes
yet sugary my soul.

passing the lights by the mountains, I take in what I wish to be

and I wish to be
and I be

till the clock strikes 12:00, & I feel bitter as a whole.