stages of grief // poetry

anger

I wrote you a list of 365 reasons to be happy

Before all of this, when I thought maybe things could still be fixed

Before you turned around and gave me 365 different things

To choke on silent tears about before falling asleep

But darling, I know now

That I have far more than 365 reasons

Why I deserve freedom

So one you are singular, you are one person, no more

And two I am plural, together, I am not alone

Three of us are brave and strong

You were four and I don't know why

The universe conspires like that but

Five I have so many reasons to be happy

Six I won't let you make me sick anymore

Seven I'm counting myself to victory

Eight you need to know that you are loved

Nine but I cannot say "I love you"

Because ten all I want to do is move on from you

And eleven I'm sorry if you don't want to hear this

But twelve I will not stay trapped here

Thirteen

Fourteen

Fifteen

I am escaping