Noyas p.o.v
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He kissed me. And.. I didn't hate it? Did he mean to do that? I don't care if he did it on purpose.
I was always intrigued by him, he'd glance over before hitting the ball. I'd feel his glaring praise when I save the ball from hitting the ground.
I'll just act like it never happened, to save myself from being hurt again.
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I've been sitting home eating soup all day, I should get out and go for a walk.. it's chilly out isn't it.
"Noya?"
Oh no I'm not prepared for this..
"Noya don't ignore me.." Asahi pleaded. "Are you mad.. are you disguste-"
"Is this what you think this is?! You think I'm disgusted by you kissing me? Everytime I jerk off your stupid face pops up in my head..stop playing with me." I replied.
"I.." Asahi's cheeks turned pink, he looked at me with longing eyes.
"What do you want. To hurt me?" My voice cracked.
I was always called a faggot in middle school. Staring at the guys, laughing at their jokes. I wasn't interested in women and I showed it.
"I just wanted to get to know you.." Asahi's voice soothed me. He rubbed his face and sighed.
My thoughts were overflowing. I will not be a faggot. I will not given in. I am a faggot.
"Let's go get something to eat. We can go get donuts? Get to know each other?" I shrugged to his question and walked behind him. He's close but I feel like he's too far.
