The Outlook Of Life

last year

(Verse 1)
Last year was the greatest
It really was the best
Their was pain and heartbreak, but I digress
Because I have all these feelings I can't express
Your thinking what kind of pain have you lived through
Man if only you knew
I've had my heart broken more times then you
Been lost so many times, I didn't know what to do
I was six feet deep and crawled my way back to the top
Now I'm sitting here writing lyrics for this rap
Say what you want I'm not gonna stop
We have to save the world from all this other crap
I don't want to dis
I'm just telling you this
There is no meaning behind thier lyrics
They want the money and fame, they have no spirit
Can you hear this, can you hear it
Can you hear all the pain in my voice
Can you hear these words I'm saying by choice
Can you see all the pain in my eyes
Can you see all the hurt, all the goodbyes
Yeah there is probably some other good guys
But we've been through the terrible, been deppresed
Life put us both to the test
Were human and we made mistakes, forgive us
Because I stand for this meaning so I'll never cuss
Because those words don't amount to anything
And I want to be somthing
I want to be good, I want to be great
I want to be the one deciding my fate
I want to be with you all the way
But what if we only had one more day
One more day of this music
Of this rapping
Come on let's use it
Let's make something happen
I just want to go back to last year
Because my future is filled with fear
Last year was the best
It was the greatest...

(Chorus)

(Verse 2)
I want it back, I want it all
The good, the bad, I'll make the call
Give me the great, give me the pain
Just take all these thoughts trapped in my brain
Take my memories make them reality make them alive
They are the only reason I thrive
They are the reason I never fell apart, they are the reason I stayed
They are the feelings that run through my heart the reason my loose ends never became frayed
The reason the glue held me together
The reason the pain in my head is as light as a feather
Pain in my head that's all it is
I remember back living when I wanted to be dead
Do you remember that guy, I remember him
He went for a dip, he went for a swim
Never came up, never came out
Now that I remember, I recall you shutting him out
All he wanted was you to be there
He wanted for you to care
He wanted to tell you what was wrong with his life or when he wanted to tell you about his thoughts of suicide
But you were where
Too busy doing your makeup and hair
So self centered you made lose his mind
He was inoccent sweet and kind
Now he's gone too deep to find
But let's move on
Just like you did
From, me to jack, then Sean
surprised you don't already have a kid
That is now, I want it to be then
Can I use this paper in pen
To go back to those days when
Life was great, life was bad
Can't have one without the other
I'm sorry if I'm making you sad
I thought you were my brother
We were supposed to be there for one another then you left with another left me behind in the back of your mind
Can I go back, I want it back
I want to go back to my memories
Give me a remedy give me  The good, the bad, the hurt, the pain, all of it just take these thoughts that are trapped in my brain...

(Chorus)

(x2 then fade out)