Forbidden mistakes (Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 5

***Louis POV***

i broke away from the kiss... getting the courage to say the three words i've been holding in for weeks now

"Harry...?"

"yeah?"

"I-I love you..."

He looked at me... thinking 

"Prove it" 

"How?"

"Tell the world" 

I looked at him and leaned forward to whisper in his ear 

"I love Harold Edward Styles" 

He blinked at me 

"why'd you just whisper that to me?"

"because you're my world" he blinked at me, and the started grinning and leaned forward and kissed me 

he kissed me with more than he's ever kissed me before

"AWH! When's the wedding?!"

we broke apart, looking up to see My mum and sisters standing there grinning 

"If you have energy to blush you have energy to get groceries" mum nodded to the door and I laughed

I got up and dragged Harry out to the car to get groceries, not really pointing out to him that this means he's eating dinner with us 

we walked up the stairs after dropping he groceries in the kitchen, going up stairs to watch a movie, 

I plopped down on my bed as he put in a movie, considering i chose last time 

"What are we watching?"

"you'll see" 

I rolled my eyes

*Tape* 

A seven year old Harry smiled goofily at the camera, doing an Elvis pose in his elvis getup for the school play

all of a sudden a ten year old Louis jumps into the shot 

"SUPERMAN IS HERE!!" 

"Louiss you're taking my spotlight" seven year old Harry pouts as ten year old Louis tries to hug him , seven year old Harry pushing ten year old Louis away 

all of a sudden theres thirteen year old Harry, crying onto fifteen year old Louis' shoulder , crying over some girl 

"Hey, Harry, look at me" 

thirteen year old Harry looks up at fifteen year old Louis, eyes filled with tears, mind full of thoughts that should never be in a thirteen year old's mind 

"Harry, you're amazing, and if some girl can't see that then, well, she's blind"

Harry just sobbed and threw himself onto Louis, sobbing, still thinking those thoughts as he hugged onto his best friend, who is the only real reason he's  alive at this moment.. 

*End of tape*

***Harry's POV***

*flashback* 

not worth anything

ugly

lame

freak 

so many emotions flow through my head, each making me feel worse and worse, I laid down on my bed, my door locked, the pocket knife in my hand, 

"you'll never reach the bit of potential you have" 

"you can't be a singer" 

"you can't be anything, you're worthless" 

"we know why he left, your father, he left because of you! you're a low down piece of nothing!" 

I felt the tears slip down my face as these thoughts ran through my head, all being the truth

"Harry honey! time for dinner! Jay, Louis, and the girls are coming over!" 

"coming!" 

I wiped my tears and put a smile on my face, thinking that i can hide it, no one will see 

I smiled at my best friend and his little sisters, and his mum, hugging each as they came in

"you okay? " was whispered in my ear as my best friend hugged me, extra tight, to make sure im okay, because best friend hugs are the best

I pushed my food around the plate as the mums talked, and Gemma talked to the girls, Louis and I occasionally joking around, not really in the talking mood

"May I be excused?"

My mum laughed and nodded, as Louis quickly asked the same 

I made my way up stairs, going into my room, and locking the door before Louis could come in, 

"not good enough" 

"second best" 

so many phrases going through my head, each one making me feel worse and worse

"Harry, open up" 

I shook my head, looking at the door, where my best friend stands  

"Harry open up!" 

all of a sudden , Louis was in my room,seeing my tears, the hurt on my face 

"Harry? what's going on?" 

I looked up at him, tears streaming down my face, as my best friend looked at me with sadness on his face, 

"Harry please, tell me" 

i looked at him, the thoughts still flowing through my head 

"I-I.... I'll never be good enough, always second best, I'll never amount to anything, never be anything, i'm useless Lou" 

"Harold Edward Styles you are not useless, you're my best friend, Gemma's little brother, Anne's little boy, and one day you will be THE Harry Styles, screamed over by thousands, no, millions, of girls, maybe even some boys, you're gonna be rich and famous and do amazing things, save lives, " 

I looked up at Louis, who looked honest,like he actually believed in me, 

I hugged him, burying my face into his neck, sobbing and shaking, his arms wrapped around me, holding me close, soothing me 

"harry, you should talk to me about this, if you ever feel like this again, tell me, i'm here for you, you're my best friend, and always will be" 

i hugged him and fell asleep, in his arms, feeling safe and comfortable, not haunted by my thoughts for the first time in a while.

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