Between Trees

Tree 1

Once in a while, I like to look up through the window and wondering. What kind of tree I would love to have ? Some people might think this is an easy job to do. But for me it is so much harder than doing school examination.

What kind of tree I would like to grow? To watch everyday for the next years..

I stop thinking and look up to the sky, will I ever be able planting the tree? At least I will try to stay around for some times. Who will look up for it when I am gone? Or should I be gone after it grow bigger as it should be?

The thought that I should stay longer pump tears to my eyes. I blink for like thousand times to avoid the leak. Maybe, just maybe.. I shouldn't planning for the tree. I could just choose random tree on the street. Or pick randomly in the forest.

In the forest huh, it should be better to get a tree from there. Nobody will harm tree in the forest. It can stay longer than any usual tree across the street. That actually a great idea.

Happy that I make up my mind, I walk outside and get in my car. There's a beautiful forest near my apartment. I can choose a tree from there. So I drive with smile on my face. It is always amazing to decide something after a hard and long thought about it.

I drive for an hour to get there. I park my car in the corner, hide it from the main road. Then I pick up some ropes from the back seat. A few metres would be fine, then I get out of my car but I left the key inside. Nobody would stole it in here, and I think I won't be gone to long.

I walk through the forest quietly, looking around for a perfect tree. After about 15 minutes walking, I finally found 1.

The tree is not really big but also not really small. And it's not really at all and it has a lot of branches. I begin to put the rope around the branches and tie it tight, I make sure that it won't fall out.

When everything done and seems perfect, I climb a little to the second nearest big branch. I put the rope around my neck.

For a moment I close my eyes tight. Smiling, for the thought that I finally found the perfect tree. I exhale and inhale briefly, I would love to remember the smell of this woods after this. And the I count until tree before finally jump and let the rope hang me above the ground.

I feel the pain around my neck to be quite tingling. But suddenly my chest start feeling the pain too. I choked to get some air, but after several move from my legs I finally quit and close my eyes completely.