heartbreaker ✦ bieber

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29th november.

sweat beads ran down my forehead, my mind running through a million possibilities at once. i could feel my legs beginning to collapse underneath me, but i had to run. i had to get to them.

i sprinted down stairs, trying to turn all the lights on, but it was too late. they'd already made it upstairs.

"please, i'll do whatever you want please!" i shouted, tears streaming down my face as i ran up the stairs.

"no no no no no" i weeped, opening their door to find the cribs empty and the window wide open.

i ran as fast as i could out my door, frantically running up and down the streets trying to look for them - but they were long gone.

and all at once, my body relapsed and fell to the ground with a thud.

losing them is all i remember.

23rd november. (j)

i sat beside her bed, clutching onto her hand as tightly as i could.

the doctors told me she was in some kind of concussion, induced by a very severe panic attack. the news of that alone broke me, but then finding out the cause of it, the kidnapping of our kids - it killed me.

i sent out as many police and investigators as i could, every single one in the state searching for them. i promise you, whoever did this, will not get away with it.

i watched as her eyes fluttered open, she looked around disoriented. without a seconds notice i leapt up and placed a kiss on her forehead, then clicking onto the red button to signal the nurses she's awoken.

"soraya, can you hear me?" i asked, drawling small circles with my thumb on her palm.

"j-justin? where are the kids? what happened?" she asked frantically.

"they're okay - they'll be okay, we'll find them. you had a panic attack and collapsed, but you're here now and you're safe" i said softly, as the nurses walked in to check up on her.

"okay sir we are going to do a full body assessment so we're going to have to ask you to step out for privacy reasons" the blonde one said, scirbbiling onto a price of paper.

i nodded, beginning to walk out. after i took a few steps i heard soraya call "let him stay, i want him here. he's my husband, he's seen everything there is too me already" i couldn't help but feel my heart ache when she called me her husband, it's all my fault.

i turned back around and sat beside her, tears straining to come out.

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"what do we do now?" she asked, buckiling her seat belt as we packed ourselves up to leave the hospital. the doctors discharged her, giving her some anxiety medication to keep her stable while we looked for the twins.

"hope jayda and jayden will be okay" i sighed, not realising how i put my words before it came out.

i heard her gasp, with that i knew i'd said the wrong thing.

"of course they're fine, they're our children. they're strong" she nodded, saying it as if she was trying to convince herself of the statement.

i couldn't think of anything to say, so i remained quiet as we drove back to her place.

"justin, i don't want too stay there; someone knows my address, they already took the kids i just.." she trailed off.

"you can stay at mine until we find them, then we'll sell that house and figure out what's next" i reassured her.

"does selena live with you?" she said, unsure.

"yes, but i promise you nothing will happen. i'll ask her to leave for that period of time, you'll be safe, you'll be with me" i said, tightening my grip on her hand.

though i had to let go, it brought back too many memories of us together. the time we first met, when i asked her out on our first date, when she said yes to being my girlfriend, when she said yes to marrying me, when we had our children, when we broke up, got back together then broke up again, and now this. it's too much.

"justin?" she said, snuggling her head up to the car door as she began to doze off for the car ride.

"yes princ- yes?" i stopped myself, grimacing st the thoughts.

"i still love you" she whispered, before falling into a deep sleep.

i spent the rest of the drive repeating those words in my head, until i couldn't bear remaining quiet.

"i love you too, i never stopped" i whispered, moving a strand of her from her cheek behind her ear.

i don't know why i left her, she was so good to me. selena did nothing for me, she never cared, and she still doesn't. but i saw how much i was hurting soraya, i couldn't bear to stay around, every second i was with her i fell more and more in love with her, but i hurt her more than what it was worth.

sometimes you have to let go of the things you love, and that'll forever be my biggest regret.

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a/n; sorry for not updating regularly, school has been keeping me on my toes & im working on a new book for when this one ends, though i still don't know whether i'm doing a third - depends on the ending of this one.

anyways i took into account of what you guys all said should/want happen, and this is what the highest demand was. thankyou for all your help and support, love you to the moon & back.