The train ride home

Reality of wanting something bad

I got up and walked towards a pole near the train door. I made sure my left hand was holding the pole, to make it known that i was taken by another man. I dared not make eye contact with him fearing that i may fall weak to his gaze again. When i looked from the corner of my eye he was gone but then i felt a presence behind me. I looked at my hand and saw another hand right below mine holding the pole. It was him, i knew it without having to turn behind to see. He ever so slightly moved his hand up and lightly touched my skin. Electricity shot up from my arm throughout my body sending chills down my spine and causing the hairs on my body to stand. My heart started beating faster and it was getting harder to breathe. I kept telling myself repeatedly that it was wrong,i should stop thinking about him . I had to get away from him cause if i don't i won't be able to fight the temptation and give in.