{How did i get here!?} A Pein Love Story

{How did I get here!?} A Pein Love Story: Chapter 14

No one was home, I sat completely bored in the hideout. They had gone out on an urgent 'mission' early this morning, even before the sun rose.

Pein had left a note saying that they were leaving for a mission, nothing else.

It was already dark and there was absolutely nothing to do here, sighing I got up from my upside down position on the couch, deciding to see if I could find the entrance to the cave, I had tried before with no luck.

Wondering through the dark hallways for an hour and only coming up at dead ends was beginning to prickle my nerves even more than before. I turned around and started heading back to Peins room to wait for him, on the way I got lost in my thoughts, wondering how my family was doing, did they miss me? Did they wonder where I went? Did they try to look for me?

It had been months since I'd seen them last and even after everything I missed them. I was worried how my mum was doing, how was she feeling?

Sighing I looked up, only to notice that I had no idea where I was, I was lost.

Turning in a circle I became worried, it was so dark, I couldn't see two feet in front of me. It seemed the darkness was swallowing up whatever light there was.

Placing my hand against the damp wall I slowly started to walk forward, taking deep breaths to try and keep calm I just reminded myself that Pein would be back soon and would probably coming looking for me soon, smiling at the notion of how concerned he would be, he probably wouldn't let me out of his sight from now on.

Concentrating on thoughts of Pein almost made me miss the sound of splashing.

Curious I followed the sound as best I could, the sound leading me to a small hole in the wall, that I barely fit through, there was a dim light at the end of the hole making me shuffle through the small space faster wanting to be rid of the darkness as fast as I could. A gust of wind suddenly blew my hair from my face, the breeze cooling the perspiration on my skin.

The sound of rushing water drew closer and I crawled as fast as I could my heart thumping loudly in my ears, the threat of a panic attack drawing near. My breathing came in shallow pants as I tried hard not to panic.

After what seemed like forever I reached the end, the exit covered by thick leaves only allowing a few rays of moonlight to peek through. I quickly fought with the leaves grunting at the effort to push them out of my way, with my head down and on all fours I managed to push through the thick bush that covered the exit.

Taking deep breaths of fresh air after what seemed like forever, I didn't realise how refreshing it was, I had grown used to the musky air of the hideout, but the fresh air was so refreshing. Getting up onto my feet slowly so not to get a head rush, lifting my head my breath quickly left my lungs in a rush, it was so beautiful, the moon was full and seemed to take over the sky, it was a cool night with the wind rustling through the leaves causing goosebumps to rise on my skin.

It was a small clearing covered with trees, it seemed to be hidden from the world. On my left there was a small trickling waterfall which led to a small pool. It was so incredibly peaceful, the beauty of this little paradise took my breath away, a small smile crept onto my face as I made my way to the little pool, it looked to be around five feet wide, I bent over to touch the water, it was cool but not too cold. I sat down next to it and looked up to the moon, its rays like a caress on my skin, I felt happier and relaxed now than I ever have been. Even being with Pein never relaxed my so much. I was calmer. It was so nice, I never realised how much I missed the moon and the peacefulness of the night.

I didn't want to back into the damp enclosed space of the hideout, it was depressing in there, it made me think that the gloominess of the cave made my health a little bit worse.

I needed the fresh air and the freshness it provided to my soul.

Closing my eyes I enjoyed the breeze and the sounds of nature, the chirruping of crickets, the rustle of animals scurrying around in the undergrowth and the hooting of owls.

I wanted to go home, my eyes welled with the thought. I missed everything about my life back home, the freedom I had to go outside, my family, even my dad.

I wanted to stay with Pein but our relationship wasn't healthy, we didn't talk about anything, and if I brought up anything about my past or his he would quickly shut it down with a harsh glance. Yes I cared about him but I wanted to spend my last moments on earth with my family, I didn't know how long I had left and it scared me.

I needed to tell Pein how I felt and that I wanted his help to get back, but how was I going to tell him that I wanted to leave? To go back to the people that had hurt me? I was scared of what his reaction would be, because I knew already what he would say. He wasn't going to let me go, no matter how much I begged him too, no matter how much it meant to me.

"What am I going to do?" Sighing I brought my knees to my chest and dropped face to my knees wrapping my arms around them tightly as the tears began to flow.

I stayed like that for awhile, until the tears dried up, until the coolness of the night seeped through my clothes and made me shiver, reluctantly I decided to go back inside and think of a way to tell Pein what was on my mind and in my heart. The more I thought about it, the more I realised that I loved the thought of being with Pein, the safety and protection he gave me.

But I wasn't in love with him....

I slowly made my way back to the hole, glancing back at my own little paradise knowing I won't be able to see it again for awhile. sighing I went onto my hands and knees making my way past the thick bush and into the cramped space which now seemed to lead me back into despair, the knowledge of not knowing how much longer I had left and the thought of not being able to go back depressed me even more than before.

Somehow this time when I made my way through the darkness, I easily found my way to Peins room. Opening the door slowly I noticed Peins silhouette in the bed, his light snores reached my ears and shocked me to know that he never even came to look for me.

This strengthened my determination to make my way home. Quickly changing I silently slipped into the bed next to Pein, looking at his sleeping face made me wonder if what he felt for me was real, or was it to fill a hole of loneliness that seemed to accompany him wherever he went, turning my back to him I closed my eyes with the thought of home as my last thought as I slipped into a sleep so deep nothing could wake me.

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I am so SORRY for not updating for such a long time. Not only am I married (three years just gone) I'm a mum to an adorable and cheeky two year old boy :)

I will be trying to update at least once a week but my apologies if I don't update that often, I'll be trying my best to do so as often as I can :)