Peace Keepers

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"Addi " I heard him calling me but I couldn't speak. I tried it wouldn't come out."addi what's wrong ? What happened ? Why won't you look at me ? " I'm covered in blood. How do I explain that how could I tell him anything without explaining everything. "Addi turn around look at me right now!" I turned around he just looked terrified "are u OK ? You are bleeding! Where are you hurt addi talk to me! " he came closer but I walked away from him "its not my blood " I said but it barely came out as a whisper. " what do you mean ? Addi tell me what happened ?" I wanted to God I wanted to tell him all of it but when I was about to. His mother came in " thank you. I can't thank you enough for what you did " I don't know how I found the voice but I said " I didn't do it for you " I said as I was walking out she grabbed my arm and asked "how Manny did you kill " I saw jadon's face pale " no need to know I did what I had to and you have your niece back that's all that matters " I said "I asked how Manny you butchered for her life " I felt my temper fill me up " I'm sorry you have a problem with our methods then you shouldn't have called me I did what I had to to save her I won't take it back don't forget I didn't have to the only reason is cause I couldn't stand him in any pain. He is why I did this not you!" She took a step back like I punched her I turned to look at him "addi ....." I tried to reach for him to tell him what happened but he took a step back from me and that look on his face killed me he was scared of me! No No No No No Not him God not him I can't lose him. "Jadon come on its still me I'm not a fucking monster don't look at me like that " I tried to reach for him but he walked away from me until he was back to back with the wall. I could smell it the fear . I could see it No please no " I'm not a monster please" I said my voice pleading now ". You.....yo....killed p....peo...people ? " I paled " I need to tell you everything J please "he cut me off before I finished "did u kill ?" " i looked at him and said "yes " then I saw it the horror in his eyes, the terror and the fear felt like I got punched in the gut. All I did was protect him I wish he knew I wish I could tell him but instead I walked mumbling "I'm a monster"
Today I lost it all I lost my light in this darkness of a life I lost my solace I left that house feeling defeated. This is why we shouldn't love all that happens is they take your heart and shove a spearhead right through.