One Last Time - (Sans X Reader)

CHAPTER_18

"J U S T   T H E   B E G I N N I N G"

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[Your P.O.V]

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your fault

Your fault

Your FAULT

The words continue to echo repeatedly in your head, you continued trashing around the room. You grab your hair violently, your breathing was strangled and hard. Sans looked even more worried and his left eye sockets blazing blue, while alphys was hiding behind him. You looked at them with teary eyes, anytime soon, they'll die. They'll all die! Because of you!

"Y/N, what are you talking about? No one will die! And its not going to be your fault!" Sans says coming closer to you, to comfort you, also with teary eyes.

But you refused.

You backed away, not wanting to hurt anyone else, especially him. Someone you love, but loves someone else. Someone you gave your heart to, but just played and broke it. Someone you once love, but can never love you back!

You were now drowning in tears, "no, no, NO! C-chara, she's coming, please sans, you have to leave, everyone! Every monster in the underground, they'll all die!!!" Sans eye sockets were now empty, his white friendly pinpricks was now gone. You were frightened with this sans, but you were too worried for them, "please, leave, leave me, no! Kill me!!" Sans was taken aback, alphys was shaking while crying at the same time. "Y/N, I'm not killing you, not again! I don't want to lose you again!" You shake your head side to side, declining. "Y/N, I-I still love you" you were silent, shock. He still loved you? After all that you have done, to him, to papyrus, especially the last timelines, he, still loves you!? But why? "I-I'll evacuate every m-monster!" Alphys runs outside the room. It was you and sans left. "Why, why?" You ask shouting at him, he just stayed silent, then he comes closer. You sat there paralyzed.

"Cause your special, your special to me Y/N, despite your mistakes, despite your imperfections, you seem to always find your way to my heart" you continued to cry as he stops exactly in front of you. You hung your head low, embarrassed. The one you loved, still loved you after all! You stood up standing in front of him, he just stayed there standing and staring at your form. You grabbed him by the shirt and kissed him passionately. He kissed back. On that moment, it seems like everything stopped, it was perfect. But you pulled away, "I, I love you too! That's why I want you to keep away, I want to die! I want you all safe and away from me, I'm not special! I'm dangerous." You were about to leave but sans holds you back, you look at him through gazing eyes, he cups your wet cheeks gently and slowly pulled you closer to him. He kisses you again, you kissed back.

"Please leave!" You hissed through a scratchy tone. "Y/N, no! I'm staying with you no matter what! I love you! Even if it means me losing my life, just for you!" You cried even more. "Sans, just leave please, your making this even harder for me! I-I'm going to be a monster! I don't want to see you die! Just because of me!" He hugged you, probably for the last time, you hugged back but tighter, and you cried. You cried and cried and cried. Soon sans let's go and left the room. waking past your crying form. Trying his best not to look back and stay. He loved you, you loved him. This is what love can bring. Pain. It was hard. You fall to your knees as you continued to cry. You cover your face from shame and from the pain. Love can hurt, it can also bring joy. But its mostly hard, hard to let go.

"ThAt lOoKed sO tRAsHy!" It was time. You didn't bother to look back at her, Chara's presence was there, her evil plans radiating upon you. "HahaHahA! LeTS gO pArTneR! ThIs wIlL be JUsT the beGiNniNg!!" Then you felt like you were you going to vomit, you started to become dizzy. You stood up and massaged your temples, it felt like your heart was burning. You then looked around, you were clutching a knife, Chara's knife, no! It was your knife. The exact knife you used from the very beginning, the knife you used to kill, to murder your stepparents. You started moving out, it was empty and silent. Just too silent. You start wandering through the silent town of hotlands. No one was there, no sign of a monster, not even one. "UgH! ThIs is yOuR fAulT, whY dID yOu eVEn wArN tHeM! YoU'Re nO fUn!" It was you speaking, no. Your mouth moving, but Chara speaking. "I had to!" You hiss. You continued to walk and walk. You arrived Snowdin, it was silent as well. "Not PosSiBle fOR aLL moNstErs tO evAcuAte thAt FaSt!" You continued walking, walking through the snowy vast area. You passed Grillbyz, you decided to come in, nope, Chara decided to come in. You kept the knife behind you, well Chara. Grillby was still there, as always, wiping the glass cups. You just smiled, both genuinely and manically. "oH, Grillby, your StiLl here? I thought YOu eVacUated? Where's the others?" Your voice kept glitching from yours to Chara's. Your pupils from E/C to radiant red. Your sweater from F/C to lime with a yellow stripe.

"Y/N? Is that you?"Grillby's voice was calm but if you heard further, his voice showed fear. "Yep, why So shOckeD? Its lIke seeing a dead PErsOn?" You then laughed creepily, clutching into the knife behind you. Ready to attack "oh nothing, and I can't just leave this place, its like my home" you cried. You, you cried, chara laughed. You were going to kill him, this place held some memories as well. But its all going to turn to dust. "You should have eVacUated with the othErS, OH well" you then smiled, ear to ear. You proceeded on tackling him. You brought your knife near his flaming form. He just smiled and attacked you with his flames, you dodged. You once again tried to slash him, he blasts flames from his hand, this time you didn't dodge, but you caught the flames with bare hands. You were amazed and thrilled at the same time while grillby looked terrified. You blasted the flames back to him. He gets hit and falls to his knees, you come closer to him, raising your knife up high. "I'm so sorry grillby, I didn't mean to, I didn't want to!"

SLASH!

you started to cry as grillbys flames turns to dust, your knife and sweater covered in dust as well. You cried, and cried, for the loss of a friend. Sans would probably kill you. "HahAhA tHIs wIll bE fUN!" You then exit Grillbyz. The pain in your heart, the guilt in you, it only grew. You continue to walk the snowy area, wondering and searching for monsters to slaughter. An every time you see one, you showed no mercy, even though you really wanted to, it was just hard to control. Chara, she used you again. The guilt, the pain, the sufferings, it only grew, it never lessened at all. It only grew, and grew, until the guilt and pain covers you completely. You were covered with dust, with guilt, with pain, with hate, and most of all, darkness. You killed, and killed, and killed. Still no mercy. You then arrived at the palace, it was silent. Just too silent. You continued to walk down the silent corridor, your body flickering from you to chara. Still covered in dust. And there it was, the two front doors to the judgement hall, and in front of the doors stood papyrus. You cried even more, knowing papyrus's sad faith.