I saw her today.
I see her everyday.
I'm her guardian angel after all.
But some things are changing.
She's becoming saddened.
That one hard blow really knocked her out, and I see her struggling to get back up.
I see her trying to get on her feet.
But no..
Someone always knocks her back down before she can make it.
She wants to be happy.
She used to be so happy last year, despite all the problems that came up.
But now it's different.
I saw her make her way into the bus. She looked confused. She looked like she had taken a stab to the gut.
Then she saw her friends.
I watched as she stared at her phone, soon to look back up with a smile masking her ache.
She sat across from them without much of a choice.
I felt her ache and I wanted to reach out to her, but it isn't proper for an angel like me to intercede so directly.
So I didn't.
I walked into the bus as well and sat in the back, a few seats over from her.
I made sure to blend in, of course by not wearing angel garments.
I sported a black hoodie along with jeans and sneakers.
Not the best choice for a rainy day, but it sure did fit.
She was just putting in her earbuds to blast music.
Same old routine.
It's humorous though... she used to only listen to music on max when she was sad. Now this is an everyday occurrence.
Am I the only one who notices this?
She hasn't started the music, but pretended she did.
"-she doesn't care. She's pretty good at being a snappy and anti-social friend though." The girl chuckled.
I thought that was her friend?
Suddenly, a heaviness weighed me down.
I shot a look at my human to see her grin. I saw the muscles of her jaw clench together.
I felt how much she wanted to cry.
Then she actually started the music.
She stayed on her phone, typing away. Probably a text?
No- she was writing another one of those entries.
I sat back in my seat and allowed myself to feel all of her soul.
My hand instinctively clawed at my heart.
She shouldn't be this sad.
That is impossible.
She covers it up too well... she's holding it all in again.
I felt her surging emotions and mixed feelings everywhere.
I felt the pain that stabbed at her heart.
I saw her greatest fears.
I saw her dark fantasies of worst case scenario- thinking up endless possibilities from one incident.
