lillys pov
he looks into my eyes and begins to say...."i love you so much lillian marie birlem , will you be my girlfriend babe?" i stare at him and begin to cry and say "of course" he looks into my eyes and says "dont cry babygirl" and picks me up and wraps his arms around me and i cry into his shoulder until i calm down. i let go and we look at eachother and slowly lean in. we kissed eachother for the first time. it felt amazing. gosh i love him i thought. 😭
*skips to night time*
it was 10:00 pm and he was still at my house. he was going to stay the night because he didn't want to go home. i told him i was going to go the bathroom. i lied i was actually going to cut myself. i was happy. but i just felt like i had to. he let me go and i was gone for like 10 minutes and he walked in because i guess he was worried. he started at my bleeding arm and then at my face and picked me up , hugged me tightly and began to cry. i was confused to why he was crying. i pulled away and looked at him. he had tears streaming down his face. i looked into his eyes and asked "why are you crying!" he looked at me and said "dont ever do this again i cant lose you , you mean so much to me babygirl" he said barely getting the words out. i got up and washed the blood off my arm as he continued to cry. after i washed my arm i put my hand out so he could take it and he did. we walked back to my room. he was still crying. gosh i thought to myself he must really love me. as he was still crying i looked at him and he put his hands over his eyes and cried harder. i reached over and pulled his hands away and hugged him really tight and he began to calm down. all of a sudden my mom walked im and he pulled away and quickly wiped his eyes. my
mom looked at me then at him. "Alex , have you been crying?" she asked. "Im okay mrs. birlem thank you though" he said shakily. my mom looked at me worried and i said "its okay mom" sadly. she frowned and walked out. tears began to stream down my face he looked at
me and wiped them away and said "i love you baby" still kinda crying. i looked at him and barely got out the words "i love you too". he hugs me tightly. finally after 30 minutes we both calm down. i asked him if i could invite over kyanah and he said yes so i texted her.
(l=lilly k=kyanah)
L= heyyy k wanna come over and hang out with me and alex???
K= only if i can bring josh.
alex said it was okay so i texted kyanah back.
L= okay that's fine.
K= be over in 10.
"they will be over in 10" i said quietly. "okay babe" he says. he comes over and hugs me and whispers "stay strong baby" i wrap my arms around his neck and being to tremble. "baby your freezing" he says worried and takes his sweater off and hands me it. "i love you" i say. Kyanah and josh burst in. we hang out for a bit. kyanah and josh have a thing but nome of them admit it. they leave. then me and me alex deicide to go to bed. he wraps his arms around me and we fall asleep.
a/n ill update later today.
