To be loved is to be destroyed

chapter 9

A/N sorry yall I haven't posted a lot. Ive been really busy lately but now I'm writing again sorry that it sucks. please leave any ideas in the comment I would love to hear them thanks.   

   

         Its been months since phoenix went into hiding at Ragnors. Phoenix has been to all the clave meetings about whats been going on with Sebastion Morgenstern, but also have been training more, and has been avoiding the Lightwoods at all times during the meetings or anything to do with the New York Institute. Phoenix has been getting updates from Magnus even though she is still not used to Magnus dating the shadowhunter of her dreams but she still wants to make sure everything and everyone is ok and doing fine.

*Alec's p.o.v.* 

It's been  months since I talked to Phoenix or even seen her. I know she's been doing ok because of Magnus telling me. I also been trying to track her but everyone else just says I should stop but I can't, I miss her and its all her fault. Last time I knew she was in England probably at the London Institute like her ancestors.

It's weird that I'm more worried about Phoenix than my own parabati that has been missing not to long ago. The clave said they are done searching for Jace but I'm not. I need to find Jace not worry about Phoenix. I don't even know if Jace is even alright compared to Phoenix. I will find him.

*Phoenix p.o.v.*

I should really send Alec his own message. I just don't want to give away my location but I have a feeling that he already knows where I am. I've been staying at the London Institute and going to the clave meeting but sitting in the back. I should also send to Izzy my own parabatai. OH MY ANGEL!!!!!! Izzy my own parabatai. I forgot about her. She must be going crazy not only about me but also a missing jace. Yeah I know like I said I have been going to the meetings. ok Phoenix you got this.

Izzy,                                                                                                                                                                                                 

I know, I know   I have a lot of explaining to do so that's why  I'm writing this. . I'm at the London Institute after Ragnor's death. I've been hiding since the wedding as you know and I also know that you are probably mad at me, like you should be. I've heard about Jace  and how the clave stopped looking but I'm looking for him and I have a lead to where he is.  Tell Alec I still love him. I'm going after Jace because he's with Sebastion. Don't  worry about me Izzy I'm fine. I doing this for Alec and you. Ill be fine.

                                                                     -Phoenix                                                                                  

 

Phoenix sent it. She went outside and headed to whales remembering the stories of Will, Jem. Tessa, Gideon, and Gabriel. All the fun times that her ancestors have and all the troublesome times with mortmain.
"this better work," Phoenix thought.