Cold (Viktor Nikiforov x Suicidal!Reader)

Cold

WARNING: This fanfic contains self-harm descriptions and some scenes you may not be comfortable with. Contains suicidal ideas so read AT YOUR OWN RISK!!! You have been warned...

The Russian skater stared at something ahead of him. He couldn't tell what it was,but the thing was just lying there,still and unmoving. The lump was covered by a thin layer of snow,pure white snow. He took one step forward and his breath hitched,felt his stomach churn and eyes widen.

The lump was a body. A woman's body.

Viktor rushed forward,and (H/C) hair entered his vision. (H/C),why was it familiar? His blue eyes landed on her small form,her small hands. Why,why did it feel like he had once embraced this body before? Why did it feel like he had once held her hand,and promised to never let it go...? Her face was hidden from him. Turned away like she was avoiding his questioning look. Hesitantly,the silver haired man bent down to reach for her limp figure. His hands slowly turned her head around,only to reveal her face. A face he had forgotten about until that painful moment.

(Y/N)'s face.

He let out a small cry of surprise. Her eyes were half-open,and dull (E/C) orbs stared blankly up at him. Terror made it's way up Viktor's face,and he wanted to shut his eyes and run away from that horrible image. But instead he hugged her tightly,and yelled and screamed for her to wake up. She remains motionless. Then the shocked male noticed the snow around them. Pure white snow tainted with red. Blood. Her blood. The sight was sickening. Viktor held up her skinny arm and rolled up the sleeve of her black jacket.

He uncovered ugly scars. 

Some were deep,ugly and red and fresh as if she had only hurt herself a few minutes ago. Some were old,like it had been on her skin for years,accompanying her throughout her painful past.

He choked back a sob. Why would (Y/N) do this to herself? Why would she let these nasty wounds cover up her beautiful skin? 

Suddenly,he remembered. He remembered the days he had spent with her. He remembered the times she would laugh with him. He remembered the mornings where they would have peaceful walks around the beach. He remembered how precious she had been to him,the best thing he has ever had. He remembered you, his lover. 

Now he knows,now he knows when he held your soft,delicate hands. He held your hands when you skated with him. He held your hands when you glided gracefully across the ice with him. Now he knows when he embraced you. He cradled you in his strong arms when you were scared. He hugged you and protected you when you cried. Those golden days were both his and your treasure. That sweet,sweet memory only you two shared. But he ended it all. It was Viktor who just guiltily got bored of you. Got bored of the sweet,innocent love you had given him. He casted you aside,and haven't talked with you since then. He tore your heart apart. Viktor shattered you.

A single teardrop escaped his now reddened eyes and slipped down his cheek. Regret and guilt seemed to have settled in him,and he pulled her closer to him.

"(Y/N)...I'm so sorry..."

He was the reason why she had spent her life in misery. Feeling hurt and confused every night,thinking:what have I done wrong? So she punished herself. Sliced her skin up with the sharp knife and cried and cried thinking about him. When she finally couldn't bare the pain anymore,she just lied down in the middle of the cruel winter weather,waiting for the snow to consume her. 

"I'm so s-sorry!" 

Viktor's body shook,his eyes met her lifeless ones. He saw tear streaks staining your face,evidence that you had been suffering until the very end. He closed your eyes.

For a second,he thought you were sleeping beauty. And if he kissed you,you would wake up. You would wake up and you and Viktor would be together again. 

So Viktor kissed you. 

He kissed you while another teardrop rolled down his face. 

Wake up...please...

But he never got that happy ending. All he could do was pull your dead body closer and closer to his.

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Hello~! It's Angst-chan! Sorry I haven't been active for a long time. But I watched Yuri!!! On Ice and this happened. I hope it isn't too cliché! Thanks for reading,and please leave nice comments!

Till next time~