The Depressed Girl

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I wake up in my bed, wait what how?? Was it all just a dream? How I remember falling asleep in a car how am I in my bed?.
   I get up really confused and look at my phone some how it was on charge, I unlock it to see if my conversation was still on there with bagey kaelyn and jacob they where still there, I slowly walk down stairs and see Jacob sitting in my sofa his elbows resting on his knees, his hands intertwined with each other and he was resting his chin on them.

"Hey jacob what's wrong why are you here?" I ask walking over to him slowly breathing

"Umm I guess I'm nervous thats all" jacob whispered some words

"Why you haven't seen them for a while there your family not strangers" I say sitting next to him

"No I'm not nervous to go home I've been home" he said looking at me

"So why are you still here? Why are you so nervous?" I ask him as confusion filled me

"I'm nervous to leave you here by your self" he said looking me in the eye

"No one else would wait with me I was scared more than anything to leave you here after reading the messages you said to the girls I just couldn't sit there knowing you could end it all now" he say his voice cracking as a tear slipped away from his eye

"Jacob I would give you a warning first I would text you saying something like 'I love you remember that' or 'thanks for everything but this is goodbye' or 'I love you thanks for everything but my mind is too messed up for you to save me' I would never go without letting out a hint or even just saying goodbye" I say pulling him into a hug

He didnt speak he just hugged me back. There was a silence so he pulled away speaking

"Its good to know, anyway you looking forward for prom?" Jacob asked with excitement in his voice jumping up and down on his seat

"To be honest I dont really want to go I might stay in and play on infinite warfair instead of saying goodbye to everyone and saying a goodbye to you" I say holding him so he is steady

"But you have brought everything ready for prom what's your mum gunna say" he asked calming down

"I'll just say I went but we never took pics" I say smiling looking away From him

"Why dont you wanna go prom it's your last proper night with everyone" he sniffles to me

"Why are you sniffling?" I ask him Now looking him in the eyes only to see he was crying his eyes out

"Jacob what's wrong why are you crying so bad?" I ask him scotching over to him

"Nothing its just' he took a long pause 'I don't know how long I'll be on tour and I want to see you on my last day at prom please think about going.... For me" he sniffles whipping away the tears from his blood shot eyes and off his cherry red cheeks

"Fine I'll think about it now will you go home its 9:45pm its late and I want to go back to be besides tomorrow I have to get up early get my hair done and my nails done" I say trying to push him put he wouldn't go

"So you will go prom?" He said standing up smiling

"Maybe" I smile at him

"Well can I at least stay here to make sure your okay and you need the company" I head placing his hands around nt waist pulling me close

"Umm su-sure" I stutter wrapping my arms around his neck

"Daym girl your fine" he said kissing my neck

"Jacob stop please" I say trying to pull away but he had a tight grip in me

"What stop complementing you?" He said smiling