Life With Love Himself

my love

That moment. I wanted to stop time and stay in that moment for an eternity, to bask in his golden love till the end of my days.

His eyes shown, as always, like no other's. A love deep and fulfilling seemed to constantly spill out of those dark eyes, and every moment they were locked with mine was like a breath of fresh air.

A million things ran through my head, and yet, at the same time, he was all I could think about. The stubble on his chin, the dirt under his fingernails - he wasn't what anyone expected of a savior, but he was what we all needed desperately.

The fragrance of the oil was thick and potent and like luxury at its finest, and in that moment it seemed fitting that I be on my knees in the dirt as I honored someone else with it. Honored him with it. That outcome would've seemed absurd only a few years ago, but this man had something about him that redefined all the rules.

It felt like infinitely less than enough, but it was all I had to give.

That moment. He took my dirt and perfume covered hand in his.

That moment. The air was thick and humid inside my lungs, but it was oxygen at it's best.

That moment. The joy shone on his sun-worn face, and his love enveloped me.

Over the following hours, no matter what words were said about my decision, Jesus's words countered them 10,000 times over.

The creator of the world defended me. Loved me.

As I lay in bed that night I couldn't bring myself to fight the smile on my face. Running my fingers through my hair, my smile grew. The smell lingered in it of that moment - of my savior, my defender, my love.

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Matthew 26:6-13

When Jesus was at Bethany, a guest of Simon the Leper, a woman came up to him as he was eating dinner and anointed him with a bottle of very expensive perfume. When the disciples saw what was happening, they were furious. "That's criminal! This could have been sold for a lot and the money handed out to the poor."

When Jesus realized what was going on, he intervened. "Why are you giving this woman a hard time? She has just done something wonderfully significant for me. You will have the poor with you every day for the rest of your lives, but not me. When she poured this perfume on my body, what she really did was anoint me for burial. You can be sure that wherever in the whole world the Message is preached, what she has just done is going to be remembered and admired."