Tragic Loss

Chapter 2

    I woke the next morning in a start. I had had the same dream every night since the accident. Instead of dwelling on the past I get up and take a scalding shower. When I get out I dress in a tank top and shorts. I look at the clock on my phone. Realizing how late it was I ran out the door towards the school.
   As I walk into the cafeteria I notice paneki sitting alone. I walked over and sat down beside. Neither of us talked. So I got out last night homework and finished with a few minutes to spare. I looked at paneki from the corner of my eye to see he is starring at me. He doesn't look away when I catch him he just smiles welcomeingly at me.
    " So... I was thinking yesterday and I wanted to ask you something." He said in a rather shy and attractive voice. But I knew what he was gonna ask before he even said it." Do you wanna go out sometime? For like lunch or dinner. It doesn't matter to me." Fear ran through me but also guilt because I knew my answer.
    " I'm really sorry Paneki but I don't think that's gonna happen." At that moment the bell rang and I got up to go to my locker leaving Paneki sad and alone. I couldn't stop the guilt from rolling me down like a train.
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    First and second flew by in a blur with no comments or smirks from Paneki. It seemed like a pretty good day despite the guilt that left a large pit in my stomach. In my third period computer class I noticed tsume  sitting in a seat next to aiko. At first it didn't register that he didn't take this class so he wasn't supposed to be here. But when it did I watched him carefully wondering what he could be doing here.
    I watched in complete amusement as he flirted with her. I even got a good laugh here and there but he never knew why I was laughing. I saw him slide a journal over to Aiko. A journal I had seen him constantly drawing in during class. she flipped through the pages carefully examining the pictures. She tried to give it back but he shook his head then got up and left. The teacher walked in not five minutes later.
    At first it was quiet except for the sound of the teachers voice talking about the essay we are gonna type. Then out of the blue there was banging on the locker,and the grunt of someone fighting in the hall. Without thinking I quickly ran out into the hall seeing tsume with paneki pinned against the wall.
    Adrenaline rushed through me forcing me into action. I ran forward grabbing tsume and ripping him from Paneki throat. My rage toward Tsume had grown over the years and that drove me to make the move have been anticipating for a long time.
    "What the hell is wrong with you?" I screamed our faces only inches apart." Who gave the right to hurt people? To hurt me or Paneki?. Who gave you that right?" My voice got dangerously quiet and extremely sad." We used to be friends. And now all you do is hurt me and pick on me. So tell me Tsume. What the hell did I do to you? What did any of us do to you?"
    He looked at me. His eyes turning a light gray of sadness. We stood there staring at each other. Tension growing. I searched his eyes for a clear answer but I couldn't find one.
    " Well?"
    " Nothing . None of you have done anything. People change Shebani that's just something your gonna have t accept."
    " That's bullshit Tsume and you know it. " After that I ran. I ran out the door and down the street to the beach. I ran along the beach till I found my special spot among the rocks the spot me and mother used to come and read stories at.
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    My mother used to say that I was born from the ocean. That I was the ocean's daughter. It wasn't her that birthed me but the ocean itself. Sadness began to overwhelm me at the thought of my mother. I began to cry uncontrollably.
    Before I knew who it was someone plopped down next to me. I looked up to see Paneki staring out over the ocean. the breeze blowing through his hair.
    He looked at me with sadness in his eyes. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me in close. I didn't refuse his warm embrace. Instead I just put my head into chest and cried until there were no tears left. He held me there. Even after I was done crying.
    We sat there staring at the ocean for a while concealed by the rocks hidden from those we hate.  But even the rocks couldn't hide us from time. After a while I got up to leave. I told him I had left my stuff back at school and needed to go it. He pulled my books out of his bag and handed them to me.
    " Thanks. So if we are gonna do this whole dinner lunch thing I think Saturday would be alright. Say six o' clock?" I told him my eyes on the ground by a small and shy smile spread across my face.
    " sounds great "he said before I turned on my heels in the rock filled sand and headed home.
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    As I was getting the keys out to unlock my door a familiar voice behind me calls out my name. I turn around to to see Tsume running up yo me from the street. I turn around and proceed to angrily shove the key in the key hole.
    "Shebani wait ... I'm really sorry. I don't know or understand what's happening to me. I'm really sorry."
    I turn to look Tsume in the face. I stare at him on my front porch for a second debating on whether or not to hear him out. I decide its not worth my time.
    " Tsume I know exactly what's happening your turning into a self centered bastard now get the hell off my porch." I turn and walk into my house slamming the door in his face before he could say anything else.
    I changed and headed to my  room. I layed in bed exhausted from crying so much. But despite how much I missed my parents I got up and went to there room and fell asleep on their bed. Something I've been doing an awfully lot lately.
************************************       late that night I was awoken by a noise out side my parents window .  a growl. I got up and slowly walked over to the window . I spread the drapes only ever slightly. And what I saw next will haunt me for ever.
    "Tsume!?"