Mark POV:
I tried to keep my eyes off of Jack after what had happened. I didn't know why I felt this way. Seeing Jack like that made me feel sort of tingly. I hated it. 'I'm straight, I have a girlfriend.' Is what I kept saying to myself. Even though I tried to not look at him I noticed something. He was avoiding me too. I started panicking in my head. 'Did he see me? Does he know?' I banged my head with my hand. 'God dammit.. why do I feel this way?' Jack saw me hitting my head.
"A-are you alright?" Jack said and came over to me.
"Huh? Oh it's nothing.. just kind of got a headache all of a sudden." I lied. I still refused to make eye contact.
"I've got some Advil if you need it." Jack pointed to his bathroom. I just nodded and sunk my head in my hands. Jack hesitated then ran off to the bathroom.
Jack POV:
I shuffled through the medicine cabinet looking for the Advil. My heart was pounding in my chest. 'I don't know how he knows but he knows.' I thought. He has been avoiding me all morning. I took some deep breaths. 'God he must think I'm a weirdo.' It's not like I wanted to feel this way. I don't want to be gay. I don't want him to hate me.
I ran out with the Advil and popped out two of them for Mark. He took them and then got up.
"I'm..I'm going to go record a video." Mark said then started walking to his room. I felt my heart beating in my throat and my voice leaked out without my knowing.
"Mark!" I yelled out. Mark turned around and look at me. My face flushed and I just stood there. "Um...uh.....I..." I stammered. I just froze. I didn't know what I was going to say. Mark stood there for a second in confusion.
"Jack are you alright?" He said and walked toward me. I backed up and stammered some more.
"Well...uh...you see..." My face had become completely red by now. "Uh.. have you ever....well..." Mark looked concerned.
"Have I ever what?" Mark got closer. I felt like I was going to be sick. I pushed past Mark and ran into my room. I locked myself in and fell against it panting. My mind was running a mile a minute. Mark knocked on my door. "Jack are you okay? What's going on?" I pushed myself against the door.
Mark POV:
Jack's behavior was scaring me a bit. I knocked on the door again.
"Jack... Is something wrong? You can talk to me." I said. I thought I could hear Jack sniffling. I felt horrible. "Jack did I do something wrong?" All I wanted was to find out why he was acting this way. I stood in front of his door in silence for a minute.
"I'm... I'm sorry Mark." I heard Jack say. My heart skipped a beat.
"Sorry.. Sorry for what Jack?" I say. I am just hoping I didn't do anything to make him upset.
"I...I um...I read a fanfiction.." Jack said quietly. I got confused.
"Jack why are you sorry about that? Jack I've read fanfictions before." I try to make him feel better.
"No I read... I read one about us.." I heard Jack sniffle. I started piecing together the details.
"Jack what... what are you saying?" I said and listened for his response. My heart was beating through my chest. There was a very long pause. It felt like whole minutes passed as I waited.
"I.... I enjoyed it...I actually-....Wanted to do things to you." Jack whimpered. I could hear him crying. "I'm sorry Mark." He said quietly. I was feeling several emotions at this point. I knocked on the door again.
"Jack... Jack let me in." I demanded. I tried twisting the doorknob but he grabbed from the other side. "Jack let me in."
Jack POV:
I was scared. I had tears dripping down my face now and I thought Mark was going to hit me. He kept knocking and trying to open the door. I held the door shut and leaned against it harder. Then I heard Mark whisper.
"Please Jack.. Let me in.. I'm not angry. Can we talk about this?" Mark said. I felt a twinge of relief. I slowly take my shaky hand off the door and I stand up. I put my hand on the lock to open it. It takes a moment but I force myself to unlock the door. Mark slowly opens the door.
Mark POV:
I open the door and see Jack standing on the other side. He was sniffling and shaking. He looked pitiful. I approached him slowly as if he was a dangerous animal.
"Jack are you ok?" I ask. Jack nods. I sigh with relief. I motion towards the bed. "Can we sit down and talk about this?" Jack doesn't say anything but just sits down on the bed. I sit down next to him and hesitate to put a hand on his back and rub it. He is leaning his elbows on his knees and his shaking hands are clasped together. "Hey it's ok Jack. Just calm down." I cooed. Jack took a deep shaky breath. "So what's going on? Tell me again." I say to make sure I understood. Jack gave me a glance then ran his hand through his hair.
"Well... I um.. Read this fanfiction about you and I at Pax and um... we started doing things and.. as I read it I started feeling weird.. like I enjoyed it. I didn't want to but I couldn't help it. I'm so sorry Mark! I don't want you to think I'm weird or disgusting!" Jack said and threw his head in his hands. I felt a strange sensation rise up in me. I was overcome with emotion and I threw my arms around Jack. I held him close and hard in my arms. Jack was confused at first then he wrapped his arms around me. He started crying into my shoulder. I put a hand on his head and held him close.
"It's ok Jack. Shhh." I said and patted his back. We sat for awhile hugging then Jack pulled away. He sat and wiped away his tears. I stared at him for a moment. I felt a rush of emotion come over me again and I put my hand on the back of Jack's neck. I pulled his head close and started to kiss him. Jack was surprised and tried to push me away. He turned his head away but I turned it back. I kissed him passionately and stroked his cheek as well. Jack had his hand on my chest and the longer we kissed the more that hand relaxed. It was kind of weird feeling Jack's beard while we kissed but I didn't mind it. I pulled away to catch my breath. Jack stared in shock. His face was bright red. I had a large blush on my cheeks as well. Jack stammered and wiped off his mouth.
"U-uh-um....W-...Why?" He said averting his eyes. I wanted to kiss him again. I touched Jack's cheek with my thumb and he looked at me.
"I...I think I love you Jack." I said with hesitation. Jack was taken aback. He turned away.
"Are you just making fun of me?" He said somewhat coldly. I grabbed him and pulled him in for another kiss. He didn't struggle this time and instead he hesitantly put his hand on my shoulder. I pulled away only slightly. My lips still centimeters away from his.
"I love you Jack." I said again. I saw Jack let out a shiver and a tear roll down his cheek. He pulled me in for a hug and I held him tightly in my arms. He cried into my shoulder and whimpered.
"I love you too." He whispered in a soft high pitched voice. I felt so many emotions flow through me as I held him close. All I wanted to do was hold him until morning came.
