It calls me closer, its calls me near
"Just once and it'll be over"
Death whispers in my earIrresistible is its sweet entice
Staring down, which one to slice,I observe my previous tries
My unseen hurt and earlier criesNo peace in my mind, no peace in my head
The quiet intelligent me, long since fled
Anger and rage consumes me
My minds demons bursting to be free
The walls of my cage finally cave
"Just be still, just be brave"
I slash down with an improvised knife
"Forget this world, forget my life"Blood oozes and drips down the drain
A slight tingle but no real painA Calmness comes over me
My last attempt please, it's got to be
"Screw everyone, that's made me into this"
The very same people who I'm going to missTears stream down my cheek,
My head feels heavy, I get dizzy and legs go weakDarkness surrounds me, I get a glimpse of the abyss
I embrace the darkness, then hear a shriek...Then nothing.... Blankness, no sound
I feel my body drifting
I hear scraping, something's stirring aroundSurrounding me, I can here creatures shifting
I hear a scream, I hear a moan
I want my family, I'm all aloneI hear cry, I hear a sob
And realize it's my own
I know I have sinned, still I pray to god
"Please get me out of this hell"
I start to yell...No sound out my mouth, only in my mind
No one to help me, no one for me to findI've never felt so scared....
My soul finally screamed and despaired
"I give up..."A light???
My consciousness returns
As it starts to get bright
I feel myself fallingA faint faraway voice, I hear someone calling
Brighter now, getting brighter stillI feel myself escaping from this hell
Has it been months or has it been years?Since I was stuck in that prison,
Trapped with my fearsI open my eyes, and look around
I'm lying in a bed in a hospital gownThe worried looks on their faces makes me ashamed
Sitting and staring no one makes a sound
"Sorry" is all I say...
Mother starts crying, my farther is sadFinding me like that, must have been bad...
I get a kiss and a cuddle,
A pat from my father,
My minds in a muddle
I still manage a small smile,
And close my eyes for a while,I promise myself, from this day on and till I die
I'm going to be the best person I can
Or at least tryLike a old cliché
"Live everyday like it's the last"
Forget all the bad days, I'm leaving them in the pastThe sun is shining, my dark clouds have vanished
My demons have gone, finally banishedLife is good, life is great,
Forget wallowing in self pity
I tell you, straight.