My eyes open. I hear Jody banging on the door and saying: "Dean hurry up your going to be late to school!"
I pull off my blankets and jump to my feet. I walkover to my dresser and pull on a clean pair of jeans and a plaid shirt. I run out of my room but stop in the middle of the stairs and run back in. I put on my glasses not caring that they are crooked then grab my backpack and run down stairs. Once I get down I pull on my converse and grab a granola bar say bye to Jody and run out to my car.
I find a parking spot then get out and run up to the school. Class hasn't started and I still have some time so I head to my locker.
I shut my locker and am joined by Abbadon. "Oh uh, hey Abbadon." I say tugging my books to my chest. "Hey Dean! So are you and Cas still going out?" She asks with a friendly smile. "Yeah we are, why?" I question. Why would she want to know? I ask myself. "Oh cool! And no reason just asking." She says with another smile. The bell rings then she leaves. Me and Abbadon never talk. I always thought she kinda hated me I don't know why but I do. Why is she talking to me now? Are her and Cas dating? Or does she just like him and wanted to see if he was free? These questions swirl around in my head as I walk to my first period class---which is math and in math Cas sits right next to me and I really didn't feel like talking to him.
Cas looks up at me from his desk as I walk over to mine. "Ey Dean." Cas says with a smirk. I smile then sit down. Luckily the teacher starts talking so we can't talk.
I try to ignore Cas the whole class.
Class is dismissed and I walk out of the room. Cas grabs my hand and pulls me to the side. He pushes me up to a wall and kisses me. My eyes shut and I kiss back. He pulls back. "How about we meet up here at lunch then skip the rest of school and go to the roadhouse then head to my house?" He asks putting his forehead to mine. "Yeah that would be nice." I say with a smile. "Ok." He says with a wink.
LATER
I turn the corner to meet up with Cas. I see him and Abbadon talking, but not talking like friends cause he has his hands on her hips. I scoot back so they can't see me. The hallways are quiet enough for me to hear them.
"Cas I'm not going to date you till you breakup with him! You lied, you said you already did but clearly haven't! IT's me or him Cas not both. Let me know when you make up your mind." Abbadon says then shoves him off her and walks away.
So he was cheating on me...
I feel my eyes tear up but I do my best to stop them. I hear Cas call after her a few times but I guess she kept walking.
I hear footsteps walking my way. I wipe the tear from my face. Cas walks up to me. Instantly he figures out that I had heard them cause he grabs my hand and says: "Dean...I--" "Save it, go find Abbadon.." I cut him off then walk off.
I turn back to look at him. "I loved you Cas, just remember that." I say then run away.
Before I reached the door to exit the school Anna caught me. "Dean!" She yells. I look back at her."Oh no.." She says then jogs over to me.She opens her arms and pulls me into a hug. I felt like crying but no tears came out. "I'm sorry." She whispers. I pull away. "Thanks Anna, but I'd like to be alone right now, I'll text you later."I say. She nods. "Ok just be safe." She says. "I will." I promise then leave the school.
I come home to an empty house. Thank god. I really didn't want to talk to anyone. I drop my backpack on the floor. I walk over to the kitchen and poor me a glass of milk and sip at it.
I can't believe I felll for him. I knew he was trouble. But yet I still completely fell for him. He played me, he said he liked me, lied to me saying he wasn't with Abbadon when he was. How could one be so mean? Ever since highschool had started I had a small crush on him but I always said I would not fall for him cause I knew he would break my heart. Why didnt I listen to myself? If I did I wouldn't be heart broken and crying right now as I sip on a glass of milk.
I put the now empty glass on the counter and head upstairs to my bedroom. I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up again.
I notice how tired I am and go to bed.
NEXT DAY
I convince myself to get up and go to shool today.
I talk to Anna before class starts. I try to avoid talking about me but of course she questions me.I tell her I'm doing fine---which I was. That was when I saw Cas. He doesn't see me. It looked like he was walking Abbadon to her first class. Anna catches me staring. "C'mon let's get you to class." She says.
Her first class was across from mine so we walk together. She goes into her class then I head to the restroom.
After I use the bathroom I walk into my class. I could NOT sit by Cas. so I walk over to the teachers desk.
"Can I have my seat moved, please?" I ask my teacher.
"I'm sorry Dean but no," She says.
Great. Just what I needed. I bite my lip then turn to go sit in my desk. I avoid eye contact with Cas.
The whole class I keep my head down and don't look to my left. It was very awkward and I couldn't wait to get out of that class. I couldn't focus on my work so I probably got half of them wrong. I grab my stuff so when the bell rings I can leave. Class is dismissed and I am the first one out of class.
I meet up with Anna in the hallway. "You okay?" She asks as we walk down the crowded hallways. "Eh" I look down on the ground as we walk. I look up to late and run into Abbadon, who, of course, was with Cas. "UH sorry." I mutter. "It's fine." She says. My eyes then meet Cas'. We hold eye contact for what feels like five minutes then he looks back at Abbadon and I keep walking.
Castiel's and Abbadon's "fight" in the hallway yesterday plays in my head. Why would she still go out with him when he lied to her? I ask myself. I snap out of it and look over at Anna as we keep walking.
