Different- meat & potatoes fanfic (Avi and Kevin)

Missing

"19..." I did one more push-up, "aaand 20". I finished my workout at the gym. It was around 8 p.m when I started heading home, tired as hell. The gym was something like twenty minutes far from home, so I walked. It was kinda cold and surprisingly silent around the streets. Maybe just because I was so tired I couldn't even remember my own name. Tough day at work and tough workout at the gym. Sometimes I think maybe I'm working too hard and putting too much pressure on myself. But then I remember that there are people who would love to have the life I have. I have a great job, great band, great friends and family and a great best friend. Seriously, I can't imagine my life without him. There's just one thing in my life that is missing.
*****
After this long walk I burst into my house, the one that I shared with Avi. For some reason, I was a bit anxious. "Dude ya home?" I shouted at the space. "Coming Kev", I heard a familiar deep voice coming down the stairs. That's my best friend, Avi. (A/N or potatoes if you will ^^)
He took me into an embrace and patted my back a few times.
"Did you eat dinner?" He raised an eyebrow and smiled, looking hot as fuck. Dammit, did I really just think that?! Oh my god, please don't. I'm straight, no doubt. Shit, don't tell me I'm in the confusing stage, 12 years late. Oh my- "Kevin?" Avi snapped his finger in my face to make sure I was alive.
"Oh sorry", I blushed a bit. "No I didn't".
"That's great because I made ribs and waited for you", he smiled at me, knowing I would be happy.
"Oh my god, thank you! Now you're officially not-an-asshole", I joked and he laughed his deep sexy laugh. Oh not again.
"Oh my god, I always wanted to be a non-asshole", he pretended to be shocked as he prepared the table in our living room.
We sat down and started eating. It was delicious, just like him. Okay, Kev, that was just gross. That's your best friend so I suggest you shut the fuck up.
"So dude I forgot to ask you"... I started talking after a long silence.
"How was your date with kate?" I hated this question.
"You know what? It wasn't very good. Turned out that girl is a bitchy little gold digger who doesn't give a fuck about who I am", he got angrier with every word he said, which made me a little happy for some reason, although I kept a straight face.
"She ordered a really expensive meal. At the end of the lunch, I suggested that we split the bill. You know how angry she got, dude, she screamed so loud that we were almost kicked out of the restaurant", he laughed as he said the last sentence and I laughed with him. But then he became sad.
"I thought I knew her. We were friends since 6th grade, I never thought she could be such a bitch. She surprised me, Kev. I hate her", he finished and now looked sad and angry at the same time. He was red but his eyes were puffy.
"I trusted her all these years. Now I don't know if I can trust anyone at all".
"Well, you can always trust me. You know that", I tried cheering him up. Seeing my brother so sad is harsh. Really.
"I know I can", he gave me a hug and I hugged back right away. No pats on the back, no gayness avoidance. He needed it, and actually so did I. Avi is literally the best human ever.
I tossed in bed all night, barely getting any sleep.
You are straight, Kevin! Of course you are and this is how things were since you were born. Don't get all confused now. I know there's nothing wrong with being gay, but you're not. And if you are, you're not used to it.
I talked to myself almost out loud. I never had a crush on a girl before. But I never had a crush on a man either. Or, did I?
Nah, you were just tired today and had some weird thoughts, shit happens.
All of these thoughts didn't help much.
I'm gay.
And I'm perfectly fine with it.
I'm going to come out to Avi tomorrow.