Different- meat & potatoes fanfic (Avi and Kevin)

Cars and water

So... let's not talk about what happened last night, just for now😉.
What happened in the car right before the "big thing" did, was far more important.
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"You don't want me to stop do ya? And why is that?" Avi smirked under his beard.
I suddenly felt a big hot flash of passing in front of me. Now is the time. That's my chance and I can't miss it. Cmon Kev, go for it!
"I..." I stuttered. It's going to happen, holy shit. How am I going to do this?
And then, without even realizing it, I did it.
"I love you. I love you so much. As a friend and more, Avi. I've been crazy in love with you lately, but it started way earlier. I only realized that now. And actually, I've come to a place where I don't even care what we are. I just want to have you in my life and I want you to be happy".
That's how I ended it. I took a deep breath and wiped a hand over my face. I just did that. Oh my fucking god.
"So... when I asked you how did you know you were gay... and you didn't wanna answer... was that the answer?"
Avi asked me and I could feel he was anxious.
I was relaxed. I already gave up everything, and all I had to do was wait for his part. I smiled, looked at him and said "yes".
"Kev... I..." he stuttered.
My heart started beating right away. If he doesn't speak soon, I'm going to explode. And that was just a sad deja vu to a few days ago. Dammit, why do I keep getting myself into trouble? I'm going to be miserable after this whole thing ends, I know it. I should just forget about the fact that I'm gay and settle with a high school friend if I don't wanna be a virgin for life. I mean... this hooker sophomore thing doesn't count. It's so sad that this is my life climax. Sex with a hooker because I had no girlfriends... and boyfriends.
Sitting there in the car and waiting for Avi's response felt like forever. But it was no more than a single minute. I looked at my feet and didn't want to see Avi's face. It was too much for me. He's saying no, I know that.
I tried not to look at him for a few more seconds when suddenly... Avi was crying. Tears were now falling down his cheeks. Oh baby. I can't see him like that. I wiped a tear out of his fuzzy cheek. No words. We cannot speak right now. Avi cried and I wiped his tears away, and no questions were asked.
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Before noticing, we got home. Avi loudly parked the car and kept on sitting in it, looking devastated. It was another deja vu. Us sitting in the car and having a long conversation without saying a word. Avi was now saying 'I'm sorry things worked out like this'. And I was saying 'it's okay'. The weird thing was, we didn't even look at each other. We had a conversation of two blind, deaf and mute men, but we both knew what the other was saying. It was sad and amazing at the same time.
When it suddenly started raining, our conversation stopped. This is so cliche.
Avi looked at me and got out of the car. I waited a few seconds, then joined him. He was now standing in the rain, letting the drops fall down his body like tears. I stood there with him. I wanted to hold his hand so bad, but I couldn't. I've already done enough.
Avi now looked at me, and for the first time in a while, he talked. "Close your eyes", he said with his deep voice like an angel. I had to obey. I didn't know what was coming, and I didn't want to think about it. From now on, I'm just going with the flow.
I couldn't see Avi, but I knew he was super close to me. I felt his warmth behind me and heard his breath in my ear. "Listen to me", he whispered in my ear, making vibes inside my body. Holy shit, something is about to happen.
"It's ten past two, still I'm thinking of you" he started to speak in my ear in a super low voice. He didn't sing the lyrics just yet. "If I showed you all I really want to... would you stay, date to push me away?" He asked the next phrase like a question. I wanted to answer, but I knew it would ruin everything. The rain was now getting stronger. "I just can't return anymore". Avi took a deep breath, then he held my hand from behind and I let out a silent moan. His hand was wet, but warm and inviting. His touch was always like that. The next phrase was a lot different. He stopped whispering and now sang silently with his angel voice. "Timid heart, hide my scars. Make me stronger". I got chills and kept on listening. He now hugged me from behind and pressed his body against mine. "I can't take this any longer. I need, I need you like water. It's on the tip of my tongue, I'm not asking for much". He now sang loudly. I couldn't take this any longer myself. This was pleasure and pain at the same time.
I opened my eyes, turned around and kissed him passionately.
"Kevin, I love you. I really do. I was considering coming out as a bisexual for a few years now. Now that you've come out, you helped me, you're like my hero. I adore you and you're everything to me. I tried looking for the right way to do this".
Avi spoke and I was in shock. I couldn't believe what he was saying. It felt like a cruel joke or a nightmare I'm going to wake up to in a few minutes.
But no. It was real. He was real, I was real and the rain was the witness of what was happening. I pecked his lips and smiled at him. "You really did choose a good way". He giggled and wiped a shy hand through his hair. "Will you be my boyfriend, Kevin?" He looked deep in my eyes. "Yes, yes Avi! I will!" I screamed and kissed him. It was a long passionate kiss. You know, that kind of kiss you know you're gonna remember for a long time. I didn't want it to end.
Avi pulled away after about a minute and held my hand.
We walked home together silently, and had the best night of our lives. The night when I lost my virginity.