"Nobody changes they chose to." That's what I hear every time I say people change. People change because people have felt or been powerless before. Being power less is a horrible feeling that people get when the get made fun of. " HEY LOOK ITS THE POSSESSED DOLL." Is all I hear everyday from people I don't know. When you've been abused physically and mentally it's hard to think your strong enough to face the world. Its hard to think that you can still be the same person you were before. So..... your mind forces you to change who you are. It changes the way you act, the way you think, and the way you feel. Once you change your like that forever. Your heart is broken and cold, you can't love anyone anymore. Everyday I wake up thinking "why me why not someone else?"and "why bother to go anywhere?"When people look into my dull brown eyes all they see sadness and ask if I'm alright and I say yes and give a fake smile. But what they don't know is what the biggest smile can hide the worst pain. People always ask what the cuts on my wrists are from I say it's from my cat they say ok without even knowing what I've been through and walk away from me not knowing what there really from. I cry every night in the shower where no one can here me.i cry in the rain to feel like I'm not the only one crying.It hurts to be like this. It hurts to live like this. On the outside you see a happy girl that's laughing and smiling, but on the inside you can't hear the eternal screams to come and save her from the thing that is hurting her. People try to help her any way they can. But they can't help me.
People change.
