Playboy • Verkwan

✰10

I slowly opened my eyes, finding myself on my bed. I quickly recalled everything that happened last night- his hug, his hands, and his eyes.

I checked my phone and it reads 7:20 A.M. Perfect. I climbed out of my bed lazily and the cold winter morning air hit my almost bare legs directly. I stood up and walked out of the bedroom, yawning.

"Seungkwannie!" I heard Joshua's voice. I opened my eyes forcefully and there he was, sitting on the couch, smiling at me.

"Joshua-hyung! Good morning," I blushed and smiled my best morning smile, "Why are you here?"

"Maybe at least try to make yourself more presentable, Seungkwan," Vernon interrpted.

"Well I think he looks cute like this," Joshua said towards Vernon.

"Well I think you should get out of our dorm," Vernon replied.

"I believe that Seungkwan wants me to stay here?" Joshua-hyung smiled at me.

"O-Of coures!" I said quickly, maybe a little too quickly.

Vernon just glared at me before walking into the kitchen again. I smiled at Joshua again then followed him in, quietly.

"Fuck," He swore at a piece of bread, "Fuck yourself, you little bitchy fucking bread."

"Are you ok?" I questioned.

"Um, yes?" He replied to me before talking to the piece of bread again, "You little shitty bread, go die in a fucking hole."

I had to admit. He was adorable. His large brown eyes focused on the little poor piece of well cooked bread. I invited Joshua to join breakfast with us. Vernon just looked at him and causally shift his eyes back to the piece of bread. Well, Vernon did kept on murmuring swear words all breakfast long. Not towards anyone, but towards the bread.

Joshua-hyung was pretty pissed off by that.

Then we walked to class together. Vernon had some of his friends by his side, though he never spoke to them. Me and Joshua-hyung are just having a real blast.

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"Shit," He cursed under his breath. We decided to walk back to our dorm together after school.

"What?" I asked. He was in a horrible mood all day for who-knows-why. I didn't dare say a single word, until now.

"Nah," he said again, ignoring my question, "She's not that hot anyways."

"She?" I repeated. He ignored my question, again.

Just when I see a girl, wearing a black tank top and super short shorts in this freezing winter weather, standing at our door.

"Vernon-oppa," Her sweet, way too sweet, too thick voice gave me a feeling of wanting to punch her, "I've... Waited for a long long time-"

"You can go now," Vernon replied coldly without even bothering to look at the girl.

"What? But you- You called me over for tonight," The girl kept her way-too-thick-creamy voice.

"I said, Go away," Vernon didn't even bother to look at her.

"But Oppa!" The girl disgustingly straightened her bra strips and touched her boobs, shaking them in front of us.

I wanted to vomit. I brushed past Vernon and went straight to the door, avoiding her straight eye contact.

"You know," She steped in front of me before I had a chance to open the door, her creamy voice gone, "You really should lose some weight. This is truely disappointing that my Vernon-Oppa is roommates with such a... "

"Fuck! I fucking said get out! What's wrong with you, you bitch!" Vernon interrupted, his voice shouting, "I don't ever want to see you again."

She glared at me and walked away, guess she knows the rules around here.

"Thank you..." I said.

"It wasn't for you," He said coldly, "Now open the fucking door." Well that was the first time he actually talked to me tonight.

"Then who told Jeonghan-hyung about where I was and who came to look for me during midnight?" I smirked. Thinking back to yesterday night- his hug and his hand, holding firmly on to mine.

"Seungkwan," he said emotionlessly, "I have no interest in someone like you. You're way too loud and you always think so highly of yourself."

Why does he always have to change so fast? He was all sweet yesterday and he just changed to a completely different person today for who-knows-what-reasons.

"And," He said again, his eyes now locked on mine, "Nobody will ever like someone with two dead parents."

Everything stopped, my world was broken. He easily opened the locked room in the deepest spot of my heart. In that room, there's everything I was before- That quiet, insecure, self-doubt young boy. I tried. I tried every single possible way to hide that room, so no one would ever open it again. Not even me.

"Living with your hyung and his boyfriend," He leaned closer, but it was hard to catch his expression because I couldn't think, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't blink. I couldn't do anything.

"Or maybe... It was your own father who ruthlessly killed your own mother?" His voice was there again.

Tears formed in my eyes without my permission. It was almost my natural instinct- to back away. To run away. To escape.

Slipping tears cleared my vision, I realized how close he was to me. My whole body was pinned by him to the wall. His whole body firmly pressed againest mine.

"Isn't it?" He asked again. His breathes surrounding me. Suffocating me, chocking me, killing me.

This time, my mind was completely gone. I pushed him away from me and to the ground with all what there is left in me. All. He let out a deep groan. Without looking down, I ran out of the room.

I need to escape. I have no idea where I was going, but this time, I'm going to a place far, far, far-

I smiled robotically.

Far away.

I ran and ran and ran and ran. Everything and everyone and every sound around me was blurry. I ran out of the huge school. I kept running.

For who knows how long, I settled down in a little alley. The alley was dark and silent. Perfect. I breathed hard and sat down. I almost couldn't breathe from all the running.

But that's okay.

I'll just recover myself slowly. I thought this would never happen to me again. Not after 12 years. But it did. Just because of him. But after all these ruthless things he'd done to me, I figured that I finally had a purpose for my life-

Get Hansol Vernon Chwe completely out of Boo Seungkwan's life.

【TBC】

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