It's been 4 years and I still hear your chuckle as I tell you a funny thing that happened at school
It's been 4 years and I can still see how upset you'd get when I beat you at Old Maid
It's been 4 years and I still can't believe you won that last game of Chinese Checkers
You always won
You never let me win once
But
I thank you for that
One can learn something from fighting for everything you want
It's been 4 years and I can't look at Chinese Checkers without tearing up a little
You've missed so much, yet I know you've been here the entire time
It's been 4 years and I'm still sitting on my bed listening to the same My Chem songs that helped me get thru it
I can't get thru it
I'm confirmed now
You would've been so proud of the Saint I chose
I almost went with Gabriel, but I know he's yours and I can't take from the dead
It's been a whole presidential term since youve been here
I know you would've voted Hillary, but maybe Trump will do some good things...
We have to stay strong
You would have stayed strong
It's been 4 years and sometimes my mom and I sit by each other and cry
Only to look at one another, say your name, and cry again
It's been 4 years and sometimes all I can picture is you laying in that hospital bed
Why didn't you wake up to say goodbye?
It's been 4 years and I still remember the back rubs you gave me as you tucked me in
It's been 4 years and our last conversation rolls through my head day and night
Yes!
Yes I thought you were going to make it!
Why did you think a little surgery like that could rip you away from me?!
You knew you didn't have long
You knew
And I think that day you needed my strength to help you walk in that room
I wish I could've given you enough to walk out
It's been 4 years and somewhere there is a giraffe with the name Beverly
I know we're Catholic and reincarnation isn't our belief, but sometimes the idea that you are still here
Even if that is thru a giraffe I am not even near
Gets me thru this
I miss you
And I know it's been 4 years
But, I love you
