Hi, you.
Hi. Many might be wondering, but this letter is in general. To her, and every single her in my life right now that will be choosing to stay. Thank you for seeing a worth in my being to even decide to stay in my life right now. I've been nothing but a mess, and yet you see me as something valuable. Thank you, for keeping up with me and my mood swings. For I know, I'm a person that's very hard to deal with. I shut people out, I push people around. I build walls around myself. But despite that, you all chose to stay. So to her, and every single her that decides to stay and walk with me. Thank you. You have no idea how grateful I am of you because you chose to stay beside me. You don't know how it made me feel worth it, for I'm used to be left behind.
Thank you, for staying and continuously choosing to stay even though I know I've been nothing but an asshole to every single one of you. Thank you for everything that you've done for me from the day we met, up until this day. I very much appreciate all the efforts and sacrifices that you've been doing.
Sorry, if I ever inflicted you pain once or many more times in this journey. Sorry for being difficult. Sorry for all the problem I'm causing and will still bring you in the future. Sorry for every single mistake that I did. I hope you find the time to forgive me for the awful things I've done.
But I can promise you one thing, you choosing to stay and be with me in this journey means I'm responsible for your well being. I'd care for you, I'd look out for you. And I'd treat you like a family. This is how I repay people for the good things they've done for me. I'd also love you, like a siblings, friend or even a lover.
So to her, and every single her in my life today. Thank you. And I love every single one of you. Until my last day.
Sincerely,
N
