The Best Yet

Being a friend

  There's this Caucasian guy in my second block class, and you will not believe this! I talked to him today, he's a nice person. I glanced at him before in class. Oh my gosh, so my heart was beating really fast for a few seconds. We were going on the same direction, so I caught up to him my exact words were.

"I like you. I hope that's okay. I know it's kinda weird. Could I give you my phone number, and you could message me sometime?"

He asked if I had a Snapchat or Instagram which I don't cause, my life just like that. I had to just give him my phone number. It was drizzling outside. I walked to class, I was so happy.

I actually wrote this for my friend in class
"I think I like a guy in this class. He is near the door in this class. I talked to him today, he is nice. I like like him. It's not weird because of my skin color, maybe I'm too much of a loser and ugly. Though I believe I am very beautiful. I dunno what to do, I should talk to him more."

I can't believe I built enough courage to, go up and talk to him. I wonder what he's thinking, what he thought about what occurred. I wonder if he thinks it's the weirdest thing in the world.

I hope he messages me, I won't get my hopes up. Though he might, he should, he could.

Well I had a dream, and it told me about relationships and liking a person. That sometimes you have to move on, and go for someone you least expect yourself with because you were busy thinking about someone else.

My family would not approve of this, of him. I get made fun of,  ridiculed, and bothered. It really doesn't matter what my race is I find him that he is kind, even if I like like him, I believe he could turn out to be a good friend instead of a relationship.

My goal was to just tell him, not to hold hands or anything. Because I wanted to work in myself, improve and get be in another more supportive environment and family. I would like to improve my life, before I could be apart of another person's world.

I cannot make myself immune to these human emotions. I feel ridiculous, I cannot let myself just sink into this word we call love.

He's literally taking my heart away, from me he's messaging me right now!
Ahhhh. I hope I don't mess this up.😖