Destroying Everything

Chapter 14

Ricky's P.O.V

It wasn't long till Devin came outside, motioning me back inside. I raised an eyebrow and got up, making my way back toward the room Chris & I were currently sharing. I stepped inside and shut the door behind me. "Hey, I didn't mean to run Devin off." I said, taking a seat on the bed next to him. 

Chris shook his head "Nah, we talked and hopefully things will get better around here for him and Josh." 

I offered a small smile and laid my head against his shoulder "Oh really? That would be good. I hate seeing both of them like this." I said. 

Chris nodded "Yeah, I told him just to treat it like they were just starting out. Like before they started dating. I told him to take it slow and do some romantic things for him. Maybe that would jog his memory or something." He shrugged. 

I had to hand it to Chris, that was a pretty good idea. I just hoped it worked as I'm sure everyone did. 

I sighed and laid back against the bed, gently tugging Chris along with me. I slipped my arms around his waist, pressing a few soft kisses to his cheek. 

Even though we'd just started out, I lived for moments like this. Moments when no one else was around. Moments where he and I could be alone. To enjoy one another's company. 

"I promise things will settle down soon, baby." Chris began, turning his head slightly to look up at me. 

I nodded. "I know. I just hope things get better for those two...they don't deserve to be going through this shit. It's not fare." I said softly. 

Chris sighed and began running his fingers through my hair, smiling at me softly. "Thank you for being here for me. Thank you for being here for Dev & Josh....thank you for being you. You're such an amazing person. I hope you know that." 

I did know that. Chris didn't waste an opportunity to tell me how much he appreciated me. How thankful he was to have me in his life. It was great. Despite my happiness though, I couldn't help but worry about what we'd done. Well, what he'd done. 

Chris barely slept anymore and it had me worried. It seems like anytime I tried to get him to sleep, he'd make up some excuse and find something we needed to do so he couldn't. I decided to seize the chance and began playing with his hair. 

Chris knew what I was trying to do. He shook his head and laughed softly "Baby, don't do that," He started softly, I could tell it was already working. "You know I don't want to sleep...." His voice trailed off slightly and he was fighting hard to keep his eyes open. 

He needed sleep. Hell, to be honest, we both did. I was mentally and physically drained and it was starting to get the best of me. However, I wouldn't sleep until he did. There were no if's, and's or butts.

I grinned as I looked down at Chris, his eyes falling closed, but opening them quickly. As long as I keep this up, it shouldn't be hard to get him to sleep. 

It didn't take long at all and within a matter of seconds, a soft snore was emitted from Chris's parted lips. He was asleep. 

I took my cue and laid down, pulling the blanket up and over us as I snuggled closer to my boyfriend. The sound of Chris' breathing, the soft mattress and the fact I was exhausted combined and I was soon fast asleep. 
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Josh's P.O.V

I wanted to go home. Not that I thought I'd remember anything about it either, but I did know this wasn't my home. Part of me wanted to demand they take me home, but they'd been so nice to me I didn't want to sound ungrateful. 

I sighed and lit a cigarette, inhaling and exhaling the smoke slowly. I was alone. And for the first time since I'd woke up, I didn't want to be alone. 

A few minutes later, I saw Devin walking by. "Hey Dev?" I called out. 

He stopped and looked at me, smiling "Yeah, Josh?" 

"Would you mind coming over here and talking to me? I kind don't want to be alone right now." I said. 

Devin nodded and hurried over, taking a seat next to me. 

I had to admit, Devin was incredibly attractive. I couldn't explain it, but anytime he was near me, I got the wild sensation to kiss him. I hadn't acted on those feelings yet, but it was getting harder and harder. 

"You okay?" He asked softly. 

I shrugged "As okay as I can be I guess." I said with a slight laugh. 

Devin sighed "I can't imagine how hard this is for you....not knowing who we are, and not even knowing what it feels like to really be home.."

"Speaking of home, I know you said we lived together, do you think we could go home? Even if it was just for a few minutes?" I asked, hoping I didn't sound too lame. 

He nodded. "Sure, if you're sure that's really what you want to do." 

We got up from the couch and headed to what I assumed was his car. He jumped in the driver's side, and I climbed in the passenger's side. 

I don't know what it was about him, but I trusted him. Probably more than I trusted anyone else at the moment. He wasn't pressuring me to remember anything. He was just being there for me. Which is exactly what I needed right now.

We hadn't been driving for long when he pulled into the driveway of a nice looking house. 

"Is this our house?" I asked.

He nodded. "That it is. Remember, we're both in a successful band" He laughed, sliding out of the car and heading to the door. 

He unlocked it, and walked inside. I stood outside the door for a minute before I came inside as well, looking around. 

"I hope this helps. I don't want to pressure you or anything." He said softly. 

I looked around, hoping something, anything would help me remember. So far, nothing was.

After looking around the entire house, I came back in the living room, taking a seat on the couch. 

"Did that help anything?" Devin asked. 

I frowned and shook my head. "No..." 

"I'm sorry, Josh. I wish there was something I could do to help you..." He said, his voice trailing off. 

"I have a very weird request....would you kiss me?" I asked.

He raised an eyebrow and looked at me like I'd lost my mind. "Did you just ask me to kiss you?" He questioned.

I laughed softly and nodded. "Yeah, apparently we mean something to each other and maybe that's the push I need to remember." I admitted.

He sighed and scooted closer to me, pressing his lips to mine. In that moment, my life flashed before me. Motionless in White, the fans, the shop, Devin. It all came back to me. 

He sighed, shaking his head as he pulled back and looked at me. "Josh, I can't do this...It's not right. I want you to remember, but I want it to be because it happened, not because I feel like I'm forcing you." 

I smiled and grabbed him, bringing him closer "Shut up and kiss me." I said, pressing my lips firmly against his. 

He pulled back, looking at me "Baby?" He asked.

"Yes, Devin. It's me. I love you. God, I love you so damn much." I said.

Tears streamed down his cheeks and he held me close. "Josh. Baby. I was so scared I'd lost you forever." He cried.

I shook my head and held him close "You'll never lose me. I'm right here, baby. Let's just stay here for a bit. We'll go tell the guys later." I suggested.

Devin smiled and nodded, keeping me close. "Marry me, Josh."