Love Gone Wrong

Walk and Talk

When we got to our homeroom class, I sat on the opposite end of the class from Lonni. I sat there doodling the name of my brother in law's younger brother. "Pookie" is what his family had called him, though his real name was Martez. I wrote over and over again on different index cards "DeShaunna and Pookie Forever" ,  only halfway listening to what the teacher was saying, Lonni walked over and peeped. "Who is that 'posed to be, ya li boyfriend?". Honestly I didn't know what Pookie was to me. I had met him just two months earlier in June. I met him through my sister at her boyfriend's trailer one night. Ever since we met we had talked on the phone every night but nothing was ever made official. Now I definitely couldn't be with him. I hadn't told him I was pregnant yet. My baby's father and I had sex back in May and I met Pookie in June. I found out I was pregnant in July and I hadn't had the heart to tell him yet. He was just so sweet and cared about me so much, I couldn't give him that news. The thought made me uneasy. I told Lonni that he wasn't my boyfriend and I was single. Everyday after that, Lonni sat near me and we passed notes. The notes were him asking me if I wanted to be his girlfriend. Of course with me being pregnant, I didn't want to get too involved with any new person, so I always rejected. I kind of liked Lonni though, he was funny and he seemed caring. He wasn't the smartest guy...but I
overlooked it. In one of the notes, he asked "you gone give me your number?". I gave it to him & he called that night. "You have til' Tuesday next week to give me my answer , if I don't have it by then , I know you don't really want me." That was the end of the conversation. Of course that made me say yes. I didn't want to miss out on my chance with Lonni. For a while, things were going good. I noticed he had a lot of female friends. I caught him in the middle of things a few times, but they were nothing major...or at least he made it seem that way.  The state fair was coming up so Lonni and I made plans to go. I was only 13 and Lonni was turning 15 so we didn't really have any transportation, therefore his mother had to take us. We decided to walk to his house in the October cold. I had decided that today was the day I would tell him that I was pregnant. I called to let him know to start walking. When we met at Parkway Gas Station, he told me his mother told him that he couldn't go to the fair because his grades were off , but we could still go to his house and watch some movies. "Nah, we can go to my house though. I have some news to give you anyways."  As we walked to my house , we talked and I tried to find a way to tell him I was pregnant. We were walking past WestBrooke Park when I finally went for it. "Lonni , give me your hand , please." When he gave me his hand, I put it on my belly. "Lonni , say hi 😐"  I said.  Lonni looked down at my stomach and looked terrified. "You're lying.." he said.  "I'm sooo serious." I told him everything as we walked down to my house. "I just wanted to let you know before you caught feelings for me, so there'd be no issues." I said. When we got to my house..things got worse....