Unforgetable

Chapter 2

love. the thing ive never felt ever. i felt left out i mean everywhere i would go i would see so many couples and then theres me i have always thought is there something wrong with me am i that ugly? i mean ive never had a boyfriend and my parents never gave me love just hate. They would always judge my everything i did and if i did something they would always come up with an excuse of how i cant do anything right and that im useless and they would always yell at me and ask me why i had to be the worst person alive. There were times i asked myself Why me? What did I do to deserve this? Why am I even alive ? And yes I have tried to end my life before i mean i would do everyone a favor but there was always something in my heart that made me stop trying to end my life sometimes i would tell myself that it will get better but in reality it would always get worse. One of the things that kept me going was My Music. I loved playing my guitar, listening to music, Singing basically music was my life and it was the only thing that kept me going. I knew one thing that my dream of being succesful in what i loved doing was never going to happen and no one has ever heard me sing and im probably gonna die the same without no one ever hearing my songs or voice. But i knew in me that soon my whole life would change because im finally turning 18 next week so 5 more days until i left this trashy life of mine i could honestly say these almost 18 years of my lofe have been a living hell and i sure as hell couldnt wait to get out of it. I drifted out of my thoughts as soon as i heard *Bang* *Bang*  It was someone banging on my door "Mariana open your door NOW !" It was my mother i got up from my bed and unlocked my door and as soon as she did i saw her hand in the air and before i knew it i felt pain on my left cheek she had just slapped me she then yelled "Why didnt you clean the house or make food i give you everything and a roof and top of your head and all you do is lock yourself in your room!"she yelled. Wow did she seriously just say that because she made me get a job as soon as i was old enough and i pay for my food and then give her the rest to pay for the house. "ARE YOU KIDDING ME ?!?!" I yelled as loud as i could she stood there giving me a death stare. "im so glad im leaving next week" i said out loud "you sure as hell arent" she replyed "yes i am im turning 18 so i can do whatever i feel like it, and you wont ever see me again"and with that i closed the door in her face. "Mariana open this door now or i will call your father!" she always thinks im scared of them but im not my life has been like this so i aint scared i decided just to put my earphones in and ignore her. And with that i fell asleep.