" it still haunts me, and I feel super guilty "
" don't worry about it, it's in the past anyway. "
" don't you miss her? "
" don't you miss him? "
" I do.. but he's changed so much, I barely know him anymore "
" exactly, same goes for me. "
" how do you seem so fine "
" keyword seem. "
" i don't get it "
" let's save that for another day. "
she just looked down. i started walking slower, hoping to spend more time with her.
her hair was tied up but she looks just as good with her hair down. she was so thin, she looked so fragile. i just wanted to to protect her.
" okay but forreal now, tell me about yourself, like what do you do in your past time, or like after school ? "
" eum,, for me - well i just like reading and writing. mainly poetry. "
" wow, you write poetry? "
" only when i'm sad. yknw, it sucks. the inability to write poetry when i'm happy. but that's almost never. "
" i'll make you able to write your first happy poem "
i mumbled, wanting her to hear but not wanting her to - ugh.
" what...? "
" nothing. anyways, don't you have a favourite place to go to after school, yknw hang out..? "
" lmao i have no friends what do u mean hangout.. i just go home "
and there, we arrived at the school gate. at that point, how i wished her house was a little bit further from school, so we could spend time a little bit more time together.
" well i guess we should go now..? bye, thanks for walking me to school i guess.. "
" sure, don't run away after school! you still owe me "
" i can't lmao, our last period's english "
" ah.. right. see you ! "
lee aiko
there he walked away, all smiley while waving. he's cute.
i wish we had walked slower. i wish my house was a little further. i wish i had stayed behind my windowpane longer staring at him waiting for me outside my house.
and i walked away, all alone again. i was used to it - the stares. but today's was different.
" i don't know whether i should be jealous or disgusted "
" how did she enter school with Mark?? "
" so was Mark cheating on Yeri as well? "
" but why Aiko i mean lol look at her "
" well she is pretty... "
" but she's a damn gangster nobody likes her "
" Mark going for the looks again "
" he's gonna regret "
" what if he turns to become like her "
" that'd be terrible. "
i walked slowly, wanting to hear all the bullshit they had to say - unlike the other days where i'd just speed walk fast. right. i don't deserve to be friends with Mark. at all.
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i took my tray and sat at my usual spot, alone again. why'd they have to give us so much rice? what's worst is we HAVE to finish everything on our plate or else we'd receive a punishment. ugh.
" is this seat taken? " a familiar voice from infront of me was heard.
" um i don't sit with anyone for break so yeah nobody's sitting there. "
" do you mind if i sat here with you? "
" uh... sure.. why not? "
the familiar face i saw just first thing in the morning reappeared infront of me. for the first time after a long time, i had someone eating with me.
" you need to eat more "
" excuse me? "
" you're extremely thin to the extent you look so fragile "
" you do too smh "
" let's gain weight together "
" no thanks. why're so bothered about me anyway?? um?? "
" can you take me as your friend? "
" what? " i swear i choked on my rice for a bit upon hearing there.
" can we be friends? i wanna be friends with you. "
i was speechless. a cute guy wants to befriend this loner..? uhm ok...
" sure... "
he immediately smiled cutely and continued his meal. for the first time, i didn't feel a struggle to finish my meal. his presence made me feel warm.
" did you see Yeri today? " i asked, curious what was gonna happen after yesterday.
" lmao yeah, she didn't seem to care. i mean, she saw us walk in together and looked shocked but while i was on my way here i saw her with some other guy so "
" are you okay? "
" why wouldn't i ? i just befriended a great and beautiful person, why would i need to care about someone so toxic? "
i felt my cheeks warm up, not again.
" you know, since your skin is super fair, whenever you blush your cheeks become extremely pink "
" w-who said i'm blushing! I just have sensitive skin"
i looked away, finishing up my meal.
" i'll go to class first, i still needa pack and my other class is at the other block. "
" okay, take care, friend. i'll see you later. "
i smiled - genuinely, and walked away, happily depositing my empty tray to the collection area. for once, i was actually excited for class.
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i'm sorry i haven't updated in so long work's tiring ohgod BTW THE NCT 2018 YEARBOOK VIDEOS HAVE ME DEAD I'M CRYING JAEMIN'S BACK STRONGER THAN EVER WITH A DAMN PIERCING I'M SOOO READY FOR THIS SHIT
