I have been raped, abused, cheated on and used
This has been my life from the time I remeber
Yet some how I always try to put others first
All this has gotten me is depression, cutting, and a heart so wounded I don't know how it beats anymore
Why am I here?
Am I ment to be the world's punching bag....
If I knew for sure that me going through this spares another then I will gladly continue this path
But maybe that is the problem
When do I say enough and start standing up for me
I don't know how to and am scared that if I do I will lose what little I have
It is not much and at times it hurts me so badly
But at least it is something
I have blessing in my life like family, a home, and a job
I keep reminding myself of this every day
It doesn't matter that the family hurts me at times for I know they love me in the end
I fight to make my bills just like others
I try to appreciate my job rather then complain about my boss
So really things could be worse
Who needs to have a mended heart and a whole soul
Maybe this is what I need to remember
Things could be worse
