Lower my gaze

Chapter 1: There he was

**first day back after holiday break**

Everyday was the same. English, Spanish then History, my favorite. I always had a genuine love for learning about the past. The teacher was also one of my favorites, he would always start class by pumping everyone up and he gets distracted so easily.

After the bell rang in 2nd period I walked to the other side of the hall and into my history class.

There he was talking with his friends laughing at something with his beautiful mouth full of perfect teeth. I think I was staring for too long he look over at me and smiled. I blushed and took my seat.

The bell rang and Mr. Michaels shouted "welcome back, how was everyone's break?" As usual no one said anything, so he told us about his.

Class went by and it was all a blur. The bell rang and I gathered my books and stuffed them into my bag. I tossed it over my shoulder and carried my text book. My phone buzzed, it was a text from my friend Sara.

'Meet me in the café, usual seats.'

We usually walked together to lunch but I wondered why she didn't walk with me today. I'll just ask her later.

I put my phone in my pocket and walked toward the door.

"Tara?" I looked back, it was Ian. Why was he calling me?
"Yes?" I replied lamely. I looked straight into his eyes, all I could think was MashaaAllah!

He smiled, showing his pearly whites, then said "you dropped this yesterday, I couldn't find you so I waited to give it back to you." His voice was deep but it flowed nicely, it was like a melody pouring out of his mouth.

It was my journal, I didn't even notice I lost it. OH.MY.GOD. I wrote about everything in there, especially about him, well mostly about him.

He handed it to me and winked. Oh god he read it. He knew I had a crush on him. All over the notebook there was
Tara+Ian 4 ever with hearts all around it. No one else knew not even my best friend ironically he was the first to know I liked him.

He started to walk off but he came back and kissed my cheek. Then walked off again.

I was frozen. Did that just really happen ?

"Earth to Tara" said Mr. Michaels, waving a hand in my face. I came back to reality and realized I had been standing there for a while.

"Oh hey," I said, I didn't know what else to say I was in shock.

"You've been standing here for a while, what's going on?" I didn't know what to say I just waved it off and he let me go.

Suddenly, I wasn't even in the mood to eat. I texted Sara I was just gonna go to the library and work on some assignments.

I walked into the library and was greeted by my favorite person ever, Mrs. Williams, the librarian. She was like my very own therapist whenever I was going through drama or just was upset she listened to me and gave me advice on what I should do.

She saw the look on my face when I walked in so she came and sat next to me. "What's upsetting you dear?"

I told her what just happened and all she said could was smile. She smiled the biggest cheesiest smile ever. "He likes you too, I mean why else would he have kissed you?"
She had a point but he can't just kiss me like that! I am a Muslim and he needs to respect my space even if he does like me.

"Do you really think he likes me?" I asked her.
"Yes, he's a nice, intelligent boy. He comes in here sixth period and does the same thing you do everyday. He's even told me about a special girl in his 3rd period class." she said still smiling.

"What do you mean special girl?" I said shocked, I haven't noticed him talking to any girls in class lately.
"You. Tara, you're the special girl. He's been telling me about you since before holiday break." She said

I couldn't believe any of this.

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