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             Josh Dun. I love him. I love his smile. His hair. His dimples. His skin. His eyes. His lips. C minor. The way his eyes squint when he smiles. Everything. I, Tyler Robert Joseph, is in love with Joshua William Dun. My favorite part of the day is when I wake up in his arms. And go to sleep the same way. I love that he places his left hand under his head and his right hand rubbing my hip for comfort. I still don't understand why Debby broke up with him. She was so lucky. I still don't understand why Jenna ever loved me. I don't deserve her or Josh's love. She is amazing. So is Josh. She knew I loved Josh, she wanted me to be happy. So she let me love him. That's why I love her like family. Just Josh a little bit more. Currently hiding under the covers giggling and kissing each other's noses. I felt like a 12 year old again. Hiding under the covers with Josh to make my mother think we are sleeping. When we were really just laying there, softly giggling. He says he loves it when I sing on stage and dance around. He says he loves the way my fingers brush over every key on the piano, ever so softly. He says he loves me in general. I don't believe it. How could someone as good looking and kind as Josh, love me? Me. I'm just a little brat. Depressed brat. Suicidal brat. Psycho brat. Ugly brat. Those names were given to me from my father. After he found out about Blurry, he's been an ass to me. Ever since I was 10. 10 years old. So young. Ruined. Until an angel named Josh came and saved me. Took my hand and lead me into the light. Here I am. Laying in bed with my angel. My love. My life. My everything. He says he loves it when I sing to him, and him only late at night. Currently I'm looking into his sleeping, half lidded eyes. He closed his eyes. Listening to my voice. Smiling, a beautiful bright smile. Listening to the words coming out of my mouth. "And I, can't help, falling in love, with, you." And it's true. I do.