Endings

S01E01 Endings of a proposal

When we were younger we all used to belive in fairytales and happy endings. But when we grew up, we began to question, is there really happy endings? Mostly it'll be endings right? Just some good, some bad, some unexpected endings... My name is Rifoo, I'm 22 yrs old, and this is the story of my ending...
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Infront of my kneeling with a ring in his hands was my boyfriend, and I really wished I could smile and say yes, but all I could think was about what news I've got yesterday. And how that could change the entire course of our future, if we actually even have a future that is. Tears rolled down my eyes as I turned around and said "Zain... I'm sorry... You've always been my one true love since primary school, but... but I don't see any future of us ever being together... I'm sorry... I don't think this will ever work out... I only wish that you would find the future...  And the happiness you deserve... I'm so sorry...". He stood up and gripped my shoulders and asked "Why? Are you scared? We've been together for a long time... Why end it now?". I looked into his eyes and knew the love he had for me was true, but it pained me to say "The truth is... I've cheated on you... Last night... I'm sorry... I don't love you anymore...". And in his eyes I saw his heart break, but I knew this would be the only way he'd let me go, I wish I told him the truth, that I didn't cheat on him, and that what I'm doing is for him, so that he'll have a happy future, even if it's not with me.. Zain walked away, holding back his tears. And it broke my heart as I walked away from him, letting the tears escape my eyes. But I told myself that this was the right thing to do.
I returned to home, my best friend Sara, who is physically disabled below her waist and is in wheelchair for the rest of her life, was laying on the sitting room sofa. I came and sat next to her. She looked at me and knew by one glance that I've been crying. She hugged me. Oh how I love her comforting hugs. She's always been like a sister to me. She is the best roommate for me, and even a more best friend to me since primary school. Her mother who was raising her alone passed away when an accident happened in the Addu link road. The taxi they were riding on was smashed by the incoming pickup. Instantly the taxi driver and her mother died. But she survived. But she had lost her legs. But she's been through so much, and yet she's so brave. She's an inspiration to me. She hugged me tighter and asked "Did you tell him the news you've got yesterday?". I began to cry harder as I said "how could I tell him? How could I tell him that I've got only 10 more months to live... Then I'll be gone... I'll be... I'll be dead...". She hugged me tighter. "Stay strong Rifoo, I know it'll be hard, but you'll have to stay strong...". The words were comforting but I shiver thinking of what my future will be... The pain and hurting that is yet to come...

42 HOURS AGO
I was vomiting. I was afraid. You see... Me and Zain and sex few days ago for the first time. And I was afraid I might be pregnant. Actually we both were afraid. As I finished vomiting on the side of the road Zain gave me a bottle of water. "I think you should drink some water... And I also think you should go to the hospital and take a pregnancy test... You know... Since we... Because of what we did few days ago..". I rolled my eyes and sarcastically said "oh yea, because that's how that works, I don't think you get pregnant from the first try, this is not a movie, so, and we are definitely not married". We both laughed when he replied to my sarcasm with sarcasm by saying "well I think even non married people could get pregnant, how could you explain Justin Bieber? He's pregnant and he's a guy and not even married". I laughed and we hugged each other.

The next day I went to doctor with Sara. Because well, Zain was busy with work... Again... I swear sometimes it's like he's more busier than the president himself... But I still love him though... We enter the doctors room. The doctor asks me to... Well let's skip a bit shall we? You know, because PG13+ stuff are involved here so... OK anyways afterwards the doctor returns with the results. The doctor frowns and says "there's two bad news..." Sara- "what is it? Please don't tell me she is actually pregnant...". Doctor- "OK... There's a good news and bad news...". Bad news duh... Sara- "tell us the good news first!". OK... I guess we can go with that... Doctor- "well... She's not pregnant... And the bad news is... Um... There's two bad news... You could probably not get pregnant anymore". Wait... Say what? I could not get pregnant EVER again? And to top that there's a bigger bad news coming. Tears began to roll down my eyes. Sara hugged me. Oh that comforting hug. But somehow it didn't feel too comforting right now. Sara- "what's the other news?". Doctor- "first I've got some questions... Does she have seizures?" Sara- "She had a seizure one year ago, and few months ago at work, that's how she lost her job". Doctor- "headaches, nausea, vomiting, blurry vision?". Sara- "we came here because of that...". Doctor- "I ran some tests on her blood... She... she is showing symptoms of cancer...". Sara- "What kind of cancer?". Doctor- "leukemia, it's a cancer caused when blood-forming organs produce increased numbers of immature or abnormal Leukocytes, also known as white blood cells". Sara- "but... but we can treat it, right?". Sara- "we'd have to run some tests, but treating isn't the same as curing". My eyes widened in fear... And the tears stopped for awhile and I couldn't even blink... For a moment everything went blank. Sara and the doctor were talking she looked upset, but I couldn't hear what they were saying as bells were ringing loud in my head. And I just began to cry out a river. Sara- "How long does she have?".

That night I met Zain. Zain- "are you alright? are you with my baby? My sweet little baby". I hid my tears. I must stay strong.  I smiled and said "I'm not pregnant... That's good right?". Zain- "hey, it's alright babe, I want to have a baby with you... And it'll happen as soon as we get married some day...". I smiled. But inside my heart was breaking apart like Cinderella's broken glass shoes. I held back the tears and hugged him. We parted ways as it was getting late. How could I tell him I could never have a baby? Or even spend a lifetime together, when I only have a few more months to live.

And that's how I ended up here crying my eyes out as Sara comforted me with her hugs. Sara- "it'll get better... Hopefully, just try to smile...". But I keep asking myself will it actually get better? I guess only time will heal, but for now we shall cry...

TO BE CONTINUED...

NEXT TIME ON ENDINGS:
-Sara- "it's been two days. You need to get out of the bed, laying on the bed wouldn't make it all go way, you know!".
-Zain kissed my forehead gently. "babe, don't stress too much alright? I know it's alot, but I believe in you". I smiled. "I know, thank you".
- I can feel myself tied up to a bed, being dragged across a dark hall. I hear people crying.