The Life Im Livin

Im confused

Kara

I cant believe we were on the couch making out right now he had the softest lips in the world i was in a daze as he flipped me over on top of him as i slid my shirt off breaking the kiss then resuming it again until i heard beyonce's voice sing Mine  through the living room at first i didnt wanna answer but on the third ring i broke the kiss and picked up not even paying attention to the ID

"Hello" i said with an attitude

"K-kara, h-hey baby umm do you have some money for your mama? my mama said as her voice rang through my red Motorola phone i looked at my phone like it was crazy

"Bitch if i had money i would a been got a new phone .if i had money i would of been moved. Bitch if i had money yo ass would be dead" i said coldly and carelessly before hanging up and throwing my phone across the room and putting my head in my hands

"Baby whats wrong" Dee said taking my hands off my head and sitting all the way up with me still on his lap

"Can you hold me Dee" i asked letting a tear slip down my cheek, i hate crying, the last time i cried was at my dads funeral

"Yeah" he said pulling me into his chest as i soaked it with my tears. It felt good to not have to be the strong one for once "Dee?" i called for him

"Wassup" he said rocking me

"I love you so much, your all i have left" i said tracing his perfect abs

"Im always going to be here Kar believe me or not im always going to be here for you more ways than once i can provide for you if you let me. will you let me Kara" he asked gently pushing me off his chest to look him in the eyes

I still had tears falling down my face and he wiped it away i thinked about it for a second as my hands dropped to his chest, me and Dee have been through a lot  he is the only thing i care about and truly love as a friend and i guess grown to love as the young man he is. Slowly but surely i shook my head yes and a smile quickly appeared on his face as he motioned for me to come towards him with his index finger as one of his big hands fell on my waist i leaned in and pecked his lips

He was staring at me like i had something on my face "What Dee" i whined bouncing on him

"Dont do that Kar" he said grabbing my waist with both of his hands and holding me in place.

I laughed and managed to hop up and down on him too. Something about Dee just makes me smile "Whyyyyy" i whined again already knowing why

"You know why Kar" he scolded me i smirked then leaned in and kissed his chest and going lower and lower as i left a trail of kisses down to his pants then i stopped "Dont start no shit you cant finish Kara" he said while resting his head on the armrest on the big plush sofa and pulling out a pre-rolled blunt from the nearby drawer and getting ready to light it

"Who said i couldnt finish it" i asked getting up and taking the blunt out of his hand and attempting to run away but he got off the couch and picked me up by my waist and lifted me off of the ground and tickled me till we were on the floor in a ticklin match

he stopped and looked me in the eyes and from that moment out i swore to everything i have that i would love him forever

I got a good man