Someone Somewhere (Asking Alexandria Fan Fic. )

Chapter 7.

>>>Flash back .

When I was 15 I was never interested in guys . But that's when Michael Lee  Came in the picture. & Ruined Everything . We'd been in the same classes threw Middle school . 8th grade last few weeks was when I noticed him , I had just turned 15 . no party or anything though no one really remember or at least knew. I had really hoped someone , or my  "friends" remember but no . it was a same old boring day. As I was about to walk out the doors I checked my pockets . Crap  I left my phone in my locker I ran upstairs & opened my locker . it was still their I grabbed it & check it . 'No messages'.

mmh .I just looked down on my phone & kept walking . I bumped into Michael . "Ohmygod, I'm soo sorry Michael . "Its okay sam ' he smiles . I hadn't notice he was that cute . mostly when he smiles ."Uhm what are you still doing in school ..? I ask him . "I left my gym bag up here ... you want to walk home together ? " Oh sure " I smile & we start walking . he lives a block a head of me . It was an awkward silence between us . then he breaks it . "Soo uh Happy Birthday Sam ' He smiles . "Wait , How did you know ?"

"well you know we've been in the same class for a while soo, I kinda always remember ' he said it so shyly .Adorable. We Got To my house I really didn't want to go in there . So I asked him if he wanted to go to the park . we were there after a while we started making out it was getting very dark . The first time his lips touched mine their was no spark no true feelings . Just pleasure. The sad part of it was that

I feel in love with him The first week he bought me flowers and so many adorable things. The next week we hung out & had our first date . I fell in love to quickly . I guess you could say i was desperate for love. After that He was just using me . When He had low self esteem he would come to me I would cheer him up . then he would disappear . Then come back. I got tired Of It . When He came to me I ignored him it hurt me . but I knew either way he didn't care.  He knew I cared a lot . I was walking home one day. and he was making out with  my neighbor Ellen . When He saw me he gave a smirk . I went and smacked him how could I have fallen in love with this .. fool.. I hated him my self . but mostly me Im so stupid I yelled inside my room. We went to the same high school he spread rumors on how I was a slut . I had had it at that point . I always had it in mind but never quiet tried it . but by now I didn't care. I took the blade out my sharpener . and that was the first time I did it. my heart was broken by the most idiotic boy ever . I couldn't get over it . I tried to but every one kept haunting me with him. at school out of school. social media  everywhere. The reason I'm afraid of love..