Love - Time - Death

Death

Hi Death,

We've met a couple of times.

We first met when I was a child of four-years-old when you came and took my great-nana with you. Although I don't remember her well and only see her through the pictures and memories that I do have of her, I remember feeling your presence. I just didn't know what or who it was at the time.

I hope she went with you peacefully.

The next two times I saw you - felt you, was with my pet hamsters. I know not very tear jerking is it? But when you're an 8-year-old child who loved and played with the hamsters every day it feels like the end of the world. 

And it was, in my own weird 8-year-old way. 

But you seem to be pretty merciless recently, merciless with your assault on the world and my personal life.

My theory is that you saw my happiness returning these past years after being in such sadness and despair for years. 

Are you in cahoots with Love?

Did you both plan this in my life before I even knew the meaning of the words "death" or "love"? Is this some kind of test for me? Because if it is, I don't see the reason. 

Why?

Why are you both doing this? 

Death, you took someone who I trusted and made me laugh. You brought her death upon me so suddenly that I didn't know which way was up and which way was down for a long time. Although we weren't the closest of friends she still meant something to me in my time of depression and sadness and you snatched right out of my grasp before I even realised what was happening. 

Did you not see me screaming? 

Did you not hear me?

I was screaming and calling to you asking you, "why? Why are you doing this to me? Why me?!"

But you never answered. 

So I'll ask you this instead.

Is there a punchline to this sick joke? For both you and Love? Because as much as I try to move on and I try to see the joke for the both of you, I just can't see it. 

Was it something I did in a past life? Or is it something that I will do that has got all three of you, Love, Death and Time -- plotting against me so you make sure that whatever I do never happen? 

But then I see you Death. I see you in the faces of the people I saw at her funeral and I saw you in the faces of the people on the news from foreign countries and I can't help but ask you, "what is the point?" 

What is the point in taking something so good and pure from this world? 

Or are you just generally selfish and want only the good people to yourself and leave the rest of us to rot on earth without them?