My Daily Actions Anchors Me Down

Day 1

honestly i hate waking up holding on to the fact that i have to live with another painful day tomorrow. i go to sleep hoping i dont have to wake up. because as im asleep i dont feel pain, hurt, i dont over think, i feel happy, its the only time i actually get to talk to the people i loved, knew in life that are now dead...in my sleep i dream of the way i can kill myself over and over its jus a dream tho i dont think i would really have the guts to do it yet i need to be stronger but weak enough to kill my self. well this is jus a quick hourly thought...

                                       ...to be continued...