Choose Wisely (Sequel to My Dirty Little Sequel) - ON HOLD

Chapter Five (ZIALL SMUT)

I'm just going to dedicate this chapters to the people who wanted that erm... icky stuff.

3rd POV

"Just, relax" Zayn whispered "I'll be gentle as I can"

"Okay" Niall shut his eyes tight, his body stiff even though Zayn hadn't touched him.

"I'll just go slow and-"

"Just do it, you're giving me time to freak out!"

"you're freaking out?" Zayn asked "I don't even know what to do, thanks!"

"fuck this" Niall said quietly "I can't... I'm not ready to do this"

"Niall-"

"I had time to think" he relaxed "and... I don't want this, not now, not soon... Maybe not ever"

"What are you talking about?" Zayn asked, rolling Niall onto his back

"I'm scared, okay?" Niall croaked "no, I'm terrified. I don't want to get hurt and you don't even know what you're doing"

"Niall, you don't have to back out" I tried reasoning with him

"I love you a lot and I've actually been thinking about this since we first said we loved each other" Niall confessed "and the entire time I've worked myself up over it. I've been asking other people, I've been looking it up and not one person has told me that the first time is nice. They've all told me it's really sore and half the people online say that they haven't done it since their first because they hate it"

"We're not gonna know unless we try"

"I don't want to get hurt"

"I won't let you" Zayn smiled "and besides, I can talk to you if you'd like and the moment you're sore, I'll stop and we can try again when you're ready"

"promise?"

"I promise"

"Fine, but... make it quick... please?"

"If you're still scared, you don't have to roll over" Zayn whispered softly "you can lie on your back so we can see eachother"

"okay" Niall nodded

"I love you" Zayn said, tapping the tip of Niall's nose with a gentle smile "and I'm sorry if you don't like this... But we can find something else"

Niall took a deep breath as Zayn propped the blue eyed boy up against the headboard, pillow stopping him from bruising his head and hurting his neck and back

"You ready?" Zayn asked

"Yeah"

Zayn started pushing in, only managing to get the tip inside of Niall

"ow, shit" Niall whimpered "out, out"

Zayn didn't hesitate, checking that Niall was actually okay

"alright... Try again"

Zayn got in further this time. Niall only whimpered, screwing his eyes shut before letting go

"okay no" Niall said in pain "no, I'm sorry, no"

"that's okay" Zayn whispered

"I'm sorry, I'm being such a pussy" Niall croaked

"no, you arent" Zayn assured him "you're doing really good, there's no rush"

"Okay" Niall agreed

the third try Zayn was almost in but Niall cried out, unable to tell Zayn to stop... But he got the message