One word, Four letters

Chapter 1

Chapter 1

I woke up screaming covered in sweat, but it was nothing new, i've had nightmares ever since i could remember i stayed under the blankets trying to calm my racing heart by breathing in and out over and over again until i felt like i could move, my muscles ached and i knew that it was still early and that i won't be able to get back to sleep after this particular nightmare so i decided to get up and have a hot shower to relieve some of the tension in my body.

I was standing in front of the mirror in my bathroom covered by a towel trying to see the perfect girl everyone else saw but i just couldn't find her all i saw was my waist lenght blonde hair, full pink lips, pale blue eyes covered by black circles evidence of another sleepless night and in my opinon a body that was much too skinny for my liking. Is this truly what people consider to be perfection? i turned away from the mirror in disgust and went to my closet trying to find an outfit that would be deemed 'appropriate' in the eyes of my 'friends'.

I finally settled on a pair of light skinny jeans that looked like second skin, and a black off the shoulder top which matched my black pumps it wasn't much especially considering that this was the first day back in our second semester but i just couldn't find the energy to look for anything else plus this was quite comfortable so it would have to do today.

Once i had finished putting on my make up which mainly consisted of concealer and mascara and lipgloss i made my way downstairs in need for some serious caffine.

As i inhaled the rich aroma of the black coffe i sighed as i reread the note on the fridge

" Away on a trip, be back next month...don't eat you've gained enough weight as it is, try not to embarrass us."

Mother & Father

At least they won't be here, i guess thats a good thing, the nightmares usually get worse if i know they're at home so i might get a couple more hours of sleep this month, that brings a small smile on my face as i look at the clock i realise i only have 20 minutes left before i have leave for school.

 I go upstairs take my bag and look at myself in the mirror before repeating my everyday mantra out loud " Smile just smile so no one sees the pain " and it's true no one has ever seen all the pain and just how fake it truly is, not even my so called 'best friends' i honestly can't remember the last time i was truly happy, and it feels like i never will be.

Arriving at school in my red porche i see all my friends making their way over so i put on a smile and get out of the car "hey guys!" i greet them waving my hand

"OMG Alex i've missed you so much like and i totes love your outfit!" exclaims Macy looking me up and down, if you ever need to know anything about anyone she's your gal i don't know how she does it but she can recite every single rumour about anyone she has ever heard off the top of her head, it's truly a shame she doesn't use those skills in class, she could be really smart if she concentrated more on her studies instead of who did who in the janitors closet.

Next came Anna she's your typical cheer captain with dyed blonde hair, green eyes and an athletes body, a girl could seriously consider manslaughter for her body, she was also a total bitch that would destroy your whole reputation if you even glanced the wrong way at her, but she was nice enough to her friends and i've even witnessed some random acts of kindness from her in the 5 years i've known her, so i know she's not all bad.

She just flipped her hair and said a simple "hello" which was enough for me

and last but not least there were the Tiffanies although they were not in any way related they looked freakly alike although it might have something to do with the exact same outfits and hair and makeup, i don't think i've ever seen them without each other and they were both named very similar names Tiffany and Tiffanie, the first time i met them nearly 3 years ago i could have sword they were psychic they always finishes each others sentences and said the same thing at the same times like now

"Hey Alex it feels like ages since we last saw you" they chorused together i have to admit it still creeped me out sometimes when they did that but i just shrugged it off and said " i know right" i had afeeling like they were gonna say something else so i quickly cut them off and asked " shouldn't we be getting to class? don't want to be late our first day back right? " they quickly agreed and we made way to our first classes.

I had first period with Macy and she was more than happy to fill me in on the newest gossip, i barely listened though knowing most of it was over exaggerated but one thing did catch my interest apperently the schools bad boy/player Ethan Stone was arrested during break again, personally i've never said more than two words to the guy and i had no intention on changing that.

By third period i was completely exhausted and ready to go home and sleep into oblivion but i still had to last till sixth period until i could go home and do just that, the second i walked into my English class which unfortunately for me was a double period since i'm doing english language and literature i noticed that the students looked more grumpy than usual so i walked over to one of the jocks Matt and asked him what's up with everyone and he simply answered "seating arrangements for a special project" I hated seating arrangements seeing as i usually got stuck doing all the work by myself.

When the teacher started pairing people up i kept praying for her to seat me with someone who would actually do the work, so when she said "Alexandria take a seat beside Ethan you're partners" i felt my jaw drop open in shock. Could my life get any worse? and i guess it could as he looked straight at me smirked and said " take a seat princess i don't bite, unless you're into that" and winked.

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