Rain.
Grey.
Black.
Thats all I see when I look out from the window.
I look up at the dark gloomy sky, thinking of how it relates so damn hard to my life
Tears streaming down my wet face.
Life has not been going to plan this year,
Parents divorcing, grey personalties, friends forming, black souls.
No one seems to care about me anymore. Sometimes not even my closest friends.
But there was this guy. A few years older. Two, maybe?
We fell in a deep relationship. It almost felt like love.
Then one day he left. Off to another girl. He took my heart with him.
I had no one to talk to. Every time i reach my sisters bedroom she tells me to piss off... man, my life is just a big, unending storm. Just as you think its over, it all comes smashing down.
Theres no way out.
I dont even know how i managed to get in it.
Ugh. My life was near perfect.
Living in the big city with lights
Trips overseas equalling into the best snapchat stories and Instagram posts.
Being drowned in comments on how beautiful i am.. or at least was.
Now I'm just a depressed bowl of Brussel sprouts
I used to have the best of luck. Winning a lotto to travel around the world at least twice.
Wow
And my parents.
Huh
Didn't even see the split coming.
Now thats the second time round thats happened.
I cant believe it.
When they got remarried again,
I thought that it was going to last forever.
Obviously not.
I was so happy, yet so gullible. I guess my life was just too good to be true.
Just like a Disney movie,
The guy always gets the girl.
The girl always has the looks
Can always sing with the perfect pitch of song.
When you look from the outside, my life was pretty swell
On the inside, was horrible.
My sister.
Travelling to Melbourne every year for her to receive her life changing surgeries,
To fix her fatal disease.
My dad.
Collapsed at work. Went to the hospital for two weeks
Still unknown who it happened.
My mum.
Had to give up her job that payed way more than she needed.
To move for my dad.
Now she barely earns enough.
Darkness.
Lonely.
Thats how i feel every day when i hop out of my bed.
If i get out of bed
I only get up on the good days.
Not many of them...
