I lay here numb
I can no longer feel the blade suppressing into my thighs
I no longer know what it's like to be
happy
I no longer know what it's like to be able to control my own thoughts
But as I lay here numb
I'll keep smiling and pretending
I actually give a fuck
just to make sure no one notices
me
But soon this numb feeling throughout my body will become a cold musk over my body as I lay in the morgue
What a pity I couldn't see their faces when they saw me lifeless laying there
but if they only looked closer at me and looked beyond this fake smile maybe they would of seen it
~Lydia W
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