Everything you never needed

Ch.5-for me to want to live i must live for someone else first.

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Ug Mondays the day I dread and to think of it I hate every other day I have to spend in this hell they call school.

I drag myself into one of my less hated classes, art, not that I can really draw the only reason I can even stand being In the weed smelling classroom is Louis is there.

I don't know just whenever I hear his name my eyes light up and twinkle like Christmas light. there's something special I feel a connection with him I have never felt with anyone else. his light brown feathery hair, perfect teal eyes that I get lost in and the most perfect small. curvy body that makes my knees weak.

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I sit down in my seat in the fat back of the classroom and look for Louis, hoping that he's here. I start to rest my head down feeling depressed when I don't see him. then "Boo!" "oh my fucking.." Louis jumped and snagged me in the said with his hands "Lou you scared me" he pulled me in for a kiss before the teacher came in, sliding his hands down my waist. "l-Lou" I moan "fuck there are other people in here Louis" I said embarrassed.

"I know but I can't resist you Harry your just simply perfect" he says pinching my bum.

"Hey, hands off Lou this is for later" I say teasing him

The bell rings and now the hell starts again.

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(End of day)

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I walk to the water fountain waiting for Louis.

Today is the day I need to tell him it I tell myself

I look at the ground wanting to cry but I have to keep cool till we get to my house.

"Hey curly" Louis walks up and grabs my hand

"Hi" I say as my voice cracks

"Are you ok Harry" he says quietly

"Y-yeah let's just go to my house" I say as I grip his hand tight and walk fast to my house.

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I slowly open my door and step inside

Louis quickly grabs my waist and pulls me close to him sliding his hands down un buttoning my pants "so you promised my that ass of yours later Harry am I gonna have to beg for it"louis pleads.

"Louis there's something serious I have to tell you first" I say shaky

"Anything babe, are you ok?"he asks worriedly.

"can we go up to my room please"

We walk to my room and I sit on my bed crisscross grabbing both of Louis hands.

"Hmm ok, here it goes"i say worried.

he looks at me worried with his eyes looking like a lost puppy.

"You know how I usually wear jumpers"

"Yea Harry"he asks confused

"And if I dont I wear my many bracelets, I love you so much and I would like you to be the only one who knows this"

I say tugging off my bracelets, wincing with some pain.

I reveal all my scars, cuts, and hatred for myself on my arms.

he just looks at me with tears in his eyes.

"Harry I'm so sorry"

"You are the most beautiful, flawless, perfect human I had ever met Harry and it kills me to see you this way, I would never love anyone as much as I do you I feel a connection with you I can't even explain"

he says as tears break free and escape down his cheeks on to my wrists as he kisses every scar and cut I have.

I just sit there overtaken by my feelings for Louis and my heart beats only for his.

And in This very moment my every beat, thumps a sound of passion.

I close my eyes.

"I want it to be you and I forever" I whisper with my head down

"It will be"

"Cause you make me strong,louis,

I don't think I could find anyone I live more than you".

"You and me forever ok" he says kissing my lips tender.

"Louis, can you stay here tonight"i ask him

"Anything for you my love"he kisses my forehead making me feel safe and wanted.

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We snuggle into each other and feel warm and safe in each others arms, drifting off to sleep minutes later

With my last thought... For me to want to live I'm must live for someone else first.